typical of me

dun know wat 2 say..
i was like..why r u so kind 2 me...
it was like a delusion..
oh god im losing my mind...huhu
knp lah dia baek sgt...
kalo baek, baek sgt...kalo y cm taik tuh..huhu tuhan sja tau.
Smg Allah melindungi mereka2 y baek.(T_T)
Its hard to deal with da pain of losing sumbdy! coz wat hurts da most is being so close.

i luv my family (^_^)
*ali izzat not in pic

p/s : cmon tasnim caiyok3..aja2 fightng 4 my last paper next week.

strugle 4 my multimedia paper

'Soulfood'

Renung2kan dan selamat ber'exam' hehe....(~_^) x0x0~~ Bittaufiq wannajah.

morale down ~~

Directionless lives ; nowhere to go.

I don’t know why….I’m just feel that my morale is down…*sigh* I just feel tired. Too tired of every thing happen around me. I'm feeling low, today. Because I feel like a piece of crap. And everything around me seems invisible and transparent. I'm so oblivious to the obvious because I can't see. Too overwhelmed. I don't want to feel, because I refuse to give my emotions and impulsive thoughts a stronghold in my mind. I still can't get used to it.

O Allah, gives me strength…

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful.

1. In the Name of Allâh, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

2. All the praises and thanks be to Allâh, the Lord of the 'Alamîn (mankind, jinns and all that exists).

3. The Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

4. The Only Owner (and the Only Ruling Judge) of the Day of Recompense (i.e. the Day of Resurrection)

5. You (Alone) we worship, and You (Alone) we ask for help (for each and everything).

6. Guide us to the Straight Way

7. The Way of those on whom You have bestowed Your Grace, not (the way) of those who earned Your Anger (such as the Jews), nor of those who went astray (such as the Christians).

It's just a game (^_~)

Just a few, short, padat dan ringkas post...huhu
I'm leaving this fake world for Allah's sake.
I got netball tournament OPEN UITM at Uitm Seri Iskandar, Perak this weekend, 17hb-18hb Oct.
Do pray for me yar..
I’m trying my Best..heh ( supposedly la...h0h0 )
All the best to my fellas...cayok3 guys!

Of course it's only a game meh....huhu...c'mon usm we do our best..yeahhh!!( wlaupon kte kalah ngn johan masum, UM aritu..hehe....wish y'all best of luck!)

wHaT A Relief!

It’s been a long, hectic, exhausting week for me after the Hari Raya break.

Mentally, emotionally, physically. I didn’t think I would be this drained.

Even in my sleep, I am not in peace! I’m plagued by dreams,way, only to have them plunge me back into harsh reality when my alarm starts ringing.

Quiz, assignments, presentations, final reports..argghh…I never knew my brain can work this hard.

And now, what a relief, I’m free from those sucky things before the bloody hell final exams appear soon. Aaaaa…I don’t want to talk about it! Let’s skip it!

Last night, is our freedom night. All the TESOLians should clap your hands for our work done..*lol*.

Not really in uber mood in talking too much.

Just showing you guys some nice pics during lantern festival at USM. We’re having our great time there.

Yeah!

a nite in da lite.......yippe!

nice shot! Credit to me..ahaks *winks*

Attention to------>

Ex-Matrian GenX (^_~)



: PERHATIAN :

Kpd semua genX (SPM'04,,puteri), sape yang nk pegi PLM jamuan raya kt PUTRA PALACE tu sila buat confirmation kt saya ataupon Mrs. Sumaiyah Adzahar aka 249 di talian 0195122439..hehe..jgn mare=p





Jemputlah datang beraya......('',)

why??....knp lah..@#$%

i know i might be a bit churlish....but..why is it always like this.........
aaaaaarrrgghhhhhhhh*banghead*(100xtimes)huhu~~~

Good News -------> celebrating Hari raya with my family *yeay!!!*(~_^)
Bad News --------> our 1st syawal is on monday......................yup..meaning we're celebrating hari
raya a day after malaysians celebrate it (s**k!!)

hahahaa...Selamat Berpuasa ler to all Bruneians sok:l*straight face* heh... n Selamat Hari Raya to all Malaysians........x@#*at wits 'end*

aaaaaaaaaa......=(=(=(=(....(continue banghead!!)dushh333xx

What a releASe..

At last, i'm home now. Another long hiatus, huh..haha..sorry for that. After stunted by all freaky stuff, i think my ramadhan is a bit 'lose'..huhu All those sucky things keeps me busy with 'hal duniawi'..eheh..*sigh*

Ermm..for the time being, i don't feel like blogging, friendstering, facebooking or what so ever...i just wanna rest...rest, rest n rest *big smile*....(learn to appreciate my time=))...but don't worry i'll be back asap..*rehab*

i bet u guys must be in raya mood...so am i...so, di kesempatan ini, i would like to wish all of u a Happy Hari Raya Aidilfitri & Maaf Zahir Batin. Salah & silap harap dimaafkan. (Best kan raye, leh makan kueh raya banyak2..hahaha)

so, enjoy your raya k!

Water Droplet

Huhu...
its still raining heavily outside. No wandering.
so, terpakse la berhibernasi kt bilik..*lol* haha
sejuknyeee...grrr....2 ari pose 2 ari ujan.
unfortunately i got sorethroat...arghhh..geramnyee...
dr smlm batuk x henti..gosh! i can't even sleep..
badan agk panas..(but pliz don't ever to think its h1n1)huhu..
mybe only light fever..*wink*
my fren said i'm too obstinate 4 not taking da medicine last nite.. (yeke..xdela degil sgt cme malas nk pkr, biar la dia baik sndri)
but still....i hate dis condition..it makes me uncomfortable..

oh god help me.T_T

Hope feel better soon!

Do pray 4 me yar..tenkiu2(^_^)


(musim berhibernasi lam bilik..huhu)

It's come again

1 Ramadhan,
the most unwaited moment. I do always pray for my healthiness so i can meet again this fasting month. It's raining today perhaps the world were also welcoming dis blessed n blissful month. Thank You Allah for giving us dis month ~ month of struggling, reaching the highest peaks of iman.
I ensure i can gain da balanced diet-maybe losing 4 or 5 kg within one month (experienced from last ramadhan),
but.....
will i gain HIS blessing, forgiveness and escape from the Hellfire???huhu...
It's the main question that i should ponder and keep in mind. It's nothing to do with da diet..it's all about our soul then....*sigh* I don't want to just let it pass me by. I want to make good use of this blessing ramadhan, Insya-Allah. So, I hope you guys also have a 'big n good' plan to do in this fullest merits n virtues month.

One of the companions of the Prophet s.a.w said, “We spend half the year making du’a for Allah s.w.t to allow us to see another Ramadhan, and we spend half the year making du’a for Allah s.w.t to accept the Ramadhan that passed.”

"Ya Allah, Tuhan Yang Maha Pengasih Lagi Maha Penyayang, terimalah ibadah kami dan makbulkanlah doa kami, andaikata ramadhan ini yang terakhir buat kami, maka jadikanlah ramadhan ini yang TERBAiK untuk kami,amin ya rabbal 'alamin"

~Selamat Berpuasa & Beribadah kepada seluruh umat Islam~

Mid-sem break

Thank God it's Friday. Praise be to Allah, I can finally let my butt down rest for a WEEK. Can't u see A WEEK..huhu Maybe a week means nothing to y'all but it's everything to me.. I can barely wait this moment and wish it will not end..*go dreaming*..(even though a week is like a day to me) Thank u to so called yu-es-em for remaining da holiday till its time..i mean following the schedule (of course not the special holiday - h1n1)..midterm break okey!*rolling eyes* ha3..Plus, we can celebrate our 1st Ramadhan at home.Awesome! ( excluded me..*sigh* )

Seems that we're in convocation atmosphere this week, so i can see a lot of 'doctors' here n there..haha..u know why?because there's a lot of people wearing safety protector aka mask which is looks like doc..huhuhu Good for them.

I was freaking out this first six weeks in this sem. Let me re-list back the things that are lying on my horizontal softboard over the past week or so ------>
^ visiting friends ^ hiking Gunung Jerai ^ preparing for presentation ^ attending talk ^ interviewing Malaysian Author - Prof. Muhammad Haji Salleh ^ finishing my assignment, assignment n assignment ^ waiting for my scholarship interview ^ practising netball 4 varsity team n lastly suffering from sunburn after netball tournament at Pesta Bola Jaring Pulau Pinang. (uwaa..tidakk,, abis burn muka ku....sedey3) Thank God i got a personal doc who's advise me to put aloevera gel...hehe..(coz sunburn make my face pedih n mengelupas) tp..lps buh gel tu alhmdlh ok dah..tp...=( muka cam arang la sket..huhu... I tell u what Penang is freaky damn hot! I hate it!! *banghead*

To my personal doc(future doctor):
Thanx 4 ur advices dan jg nasihat2 y byk ko kasi ak. Its kind of u n i really appreciate it. Plus, i got so many medic's vocab..huhu kind of u increasing my knowledge=) May Allah bless u ('',)

Now, put the suffering aside and back to holiday's mood. *grinning*. I'm going back to Terengganu tonight. Do pray 4 my safety..=) U guys too! Hepi holiday to all yu-es-em students. Have an enjoyable break! May Allah bless us, amin(^_^)

Updatessss!!

Haha, Hi everyone, your beautiful young lady has been disappeared for a quite long time, kinda miss her huh?? yea I knew it! =P..kui3

Just as how you guys have expected, another long hiatus. Well, my sincerest apologies that this misery isn't going to end as I won't find myself updating in awhile. Thanks for all those daily hits anyway, you know who you stalkers are, and I really do appreciate them.

To hafidzah Uzir : I'm so sorry dear I can't upload yet da photos for the time being, kinda busy (n lazy as well...haha..hee=P..nnt la ek)

I had been busy and am still busy, and also the laziness and lack of mood, too many things that have to be done...(haha..yeah rite..)

I know I should be smacked for the sudden comeback and then the "already expected" disappearance thereafter. But, I should be forgiven because it's not really my fault that the education system make me stuck in it..(gosh! Campus life is s**k!! i hate it!!!! *banghead*.. Internet access at my campus is totally utterly inefficient...so many blocking maa.. ( of course we have to blame things around us...hak3 )

Not really in an uber good mood to blog anyway. Was updating just for the sake of it. Coming up later.

^^Praying Hard asking the STRENGTHS from HIM^^

I hate this part right here

No I wasn't singing. (its only PCD's song..huhu) its just that I really hate that part that I gotta go back to USM....a crazy sem is waiting for me...its the time for toiling and moiling my head and my butt to all freaky stuff - assignment, quiz, test, tutor, class......lol ( sesungguhnya blaja itu jihad..huhu..insaf2..sob3..=P)

This holiday I thought, gave me most of the things I always wanted.

I travelled, I spent time with family, I met up with people I missed, I spent and I earned, I watched drama (british, american, french, korean, chinese, errr....hindustan..huhu, malay, and...ahah..cartoonsss, YM'ing..hehe googling and downloading, I lazed around, I relaxed, I… did a lot of things I wanted to do. Well all in all, I had a lot of fun in just this one semester break that I craved for.

A quote from oth would say, "Every song ends, but is there a reason to not enjoy it?" nope. But I can't help feeling distressed when it ends, can I? It's saddening, really, at the thought of leaving all these behind. All these precious little things that made me happy, all these time being at home with family and friends, all these tiny little moments that I'd do anything if I could, to freeze it.

As I look at the calendar, each day, each hour and each second I realized, is inching towards my going back to USM. OMG..its today..huhu (Am I going back today???)Aaargghh..I hate that question! I feel so upset, so disturbed, so distraught. I'm dreading it, to be honest. It's as though nothing over there is worth looking forward to, or to make me a happier person that I am already right now apart from studying. (Yes, you got me right! I love to study, I love to learn. I love to discover and do you have a problem with that?)eheh.....

Sigh fine. I'm probably not on mood now that I sound so pessimistic but who on earth would want to leave their comfort zones? But......(Like my teacher once said, comfort zones is too dangerous..Tarbiyah tidak akan dapat dicapai melainkan hanya kesusahan, kesulitan dan kepayahan)...huhu...I'm a loser then...O Allah, help me and put us in your true and blessing path..AMENN

**The Ultimate JOy ~MARDHATILLAH~ **

"And many a Prophet (i.e. many from amongst the Prophets) fought (in Allahs Cause) and along with him (fought) large bands of religious learned men. But they never lost heart for that which did befall them in Allahs Way, nor did they weaken nor degrade themselves. And Allah loves As-Sabirin (the patient ones, etc.).(Surah: Aal-e-Imran, Verse #: 146 )"

H1N1 influence!!

This virus spreads so fast!!

As of June 30, 2009 there were 144 H1N1 cases in our country, including 17 locally transmitted cases. THE Dewan Rakyat is expected to debate an emergency motion on the Influenza A (H1N1) outbreak and the appropriate measures taken... (yeah definitely they should!....c'mon quickly do something lah...jgn asyik debate jerk x sudah2..huhu)

O Allah, my Lord!

Save myself...

Hope my family and friends are fine, healthy. I will always pray to them. :D

I will take care of myself too :D

As time goes on..

It has been awhile…

Mood swings are inevitable. I would be lying if I were to say that I've never experienced it. There are series of ups and downs, which I presume you are able to see that some posts are about some crazy stuff and some are just downright depressing. Inconsistency. The day officially wraps up with some reflections. Words, thoughts, actions ; they linger in my mind.

I realize that I depend on Him a whole lot. In whatever I do, in whatever I accomplish, I really depend on Him. But sometimes, my dependency on Him becomes so mundane and I don't see the significance of it. I admit, I've been struggling with my past (and also present) about actions that I have done which have hurt Him and also myself. Taking things for granted, skipping devotions/prayer time because I was just too occupied with my own stuff. The exhaustion. Days turn to weeks. Weeks changed into months.

The connection was lost. I wanted to get closer to Him, but my past actions have hindered me from doing so - the guilt, the shame. I was only a speck of dust. I envied those whom He saw as gold. I envied those who had continuous relationship with Him, while my relationship was on and off. Everything became so familiar, and I got sick of it...**sigh**

Everyone is about dreaming of heaven(jannatul firdausi). Everyone could enter it.
but.......................

I've always wondered whether I'll go to hell(neraka jahanam) some day..huhu (T_T) na'uzubillahiminzalik.... My worthlessness. My vulnerability. My shame. I'm always stuck with predicaments that disrupt my relationship with Him. Who else could I blame? None other than myself. And this, again, adds salt to the wound.

I felt rotten. Inside. Brokenness, which will haunt me so long as I exist.

Does God play favoritism?
I can't help but succumb to human flaws. Living in this superficial world, blinded and misled. All we like sheep, have gone astray, each of us turning our own separate way. Believing the lies which are planted deeply in our minds.

God isn't fair,
but He is just. He might give you various talents. But if you are gifted with two talents, He expects two from you. If He gives you six, then He expects six from you.

I'm facing lots of calamities. Just that the impact is aggravated with this myriad of feelings. It has been many years that we've continued to stay strong. There were times I felt jaded that I didn't want to give anymore. There were also times where I convinced myself to bounce back by Faith.

Faith is simple but rather complicated. This may be an oxymoron, but Faith is what carries me through. Being realistic is a barrier to shield yourself from hurt and disappointment. The world is full of pessimism. So, realism equals to pessimism.Put our trust to HIM n have faith in HIM.

I still hate the fact that my flesh is weak...(Kudrat ku tiada terdaya...). Afterall, I'm merely human. If God embraces it, why can't I? Allahuakbar...Allah The Almighty!

Everything will be fine........

Last words, live life to the fullest. Be sure to grab hold our life mission.

The Ultimate Joy********MARDHATILLAH*********

"Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau mengirakan kami salah jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah. Wahai Tuhan kami ! Janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami bebanan yang berat sebagaimana yang telah Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kami. Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang kami tidak terdaya memikulnya. Dan maafkanlah kesalahan kami, serta ampunkanlah dosa kami, dan berilah rahmat kepada kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami; oleh itu, tolonglah kami untuk mencapai kemenangan terhadap kaum-kaum yang kafir".(Surah: Al-Baqara, Verse #: 286 )

Foods That Represent Your Organs.. SubhanAllah..

to make us ponder upon HIS creatures....
ALLAH The Most Gracious n ALL Knower..



A sliced Carrot looks like the human eye The pupil, iris and radiating lines look just like the human eye...and YES science now shows that carrots greatly enhance blood flow to and function of the eyes.

A Tomato has four chambers and is red. The heart is red and has four chambers. All of the research shows tomatoes are indeed pure heart and blood food.

Grapes hang in a cluster that has the shape of the heart. Each grape looks like a blood cell and all of the research today shows that grapes are also profound heart and blood vitalizing food.

A Walnut looks like a little brain, a left and right hemisphere, upper cerebrums and lower cerebellums. Even the wrinkles or folds are on the nut just like the neo-cortex. We now know that walnuts help develop over 3 dozen neuron-transmitters for brain function.

Kidney Beans actually heal and help maintain kidney function and yes, they look exactly like the human kidneys.

Celery, Bok Choy, Rhubarb and more look just like bones. These foods specifically target bone strength. Bones are 23% sodium and these foods are 23% sodium. If you don't have enough sodium in your diet the body pulls it from the bones, making them weak. These foods replenish the skeletal needs of the body.

Eggplant, Avocadoes and Pears target the health and function of the womb and cervix of the female - they look just like these organs. Today's research shows that when a woman eats 1 avocado a week, it balances hormones, sheds unwanted birth weight and prevents cervical cancers. And how profound is this?.... It takes exactly 9 months to grow an avocado from blossom to ripened fruit. There are over 14,000 photolytic chemical constituents of nutrition in each one of these foods (modern science has only studied and named about 141 of them).

Figs are full of seeds and hang in twos when they grow. Figs increase the motility of male sperm and increase the numbers of sperm as well to overcome male sterility.

Sweet Potatoes look like the pancreas and actually balance the glycemic index of diabetics.

Olives assist the health and function of the ovaries.

Grapefruits, Oranges, and other Citrus fruits look just like the mammary glands of the female and actually assist the health of the breasts and the movement of lymph in and out of the breasts.

Onions look like body cells. Today's research shows that onions help clear waste materials from all of the body cells They even produce tears which wash the epithelial layers of the eyes.

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