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Saturday, July 21, 2012

‎[21.7.12, 1 RAMADHAN 1433H]

Assalamualaikum wa rahmatulahi wa Barakatuh dear readerss!!

im here to wish you a quick Ramadhan Mubarak to you all and your families and friends and forget-not my loved ones ('',) ! May Allah SWT make this Ramadan a blessed month for us and let it be a life-changing one in which we will find peace and tranquility in our heart. 

May the festival of lights be the harbinger of joy n prosperity. as the holy occasion of Ramadhan is here n the atmosphere is filled with the spirit of mirth n love, here is hoping this festival of beauty brings our way, bright sparkles of contentment, that stay with us through the days ahead.InsyaAllah.

Sunday, July 15, 2012

my W-day

its my worst day tonight;( i had experienced this once n again....it happens tonight. wonder when will this misery end?=(

my B-day

dont get it wrong. b-day not stand for birth-day..its my best-day ever! July 12th, 13th, and 14th are the besssttttt days ever for me. i really really darn miss that moment. how i wish i could stop the time ;( da best thing ever happened in your life is when u spent the whole time with the person u loved most.

hello world!

just as how u guys expected, another long (very long i might say..huhu) hiatus. its been ages i left my blog since the last post. i know i should be smacked for the sudden comeback and then the 'already expected' disappearance thereafter. i do apologize to him for the delay updates as he wants me to keep updating this blog.soriiii..huhu

so, this is it...soooooo many things happened during my disappearance. it is unpredictable. yes there are series of ups and downs, which i presume u are able to see that some posts are about some crazy stuff and some are just downright depressing. inconsistency. the day officially wraps up with some reflections. words, thought, action; they linger in my mind.

im facing lots of calamities. just that the impact is aggravated with this myriad of feelings. it has been many years that we've continued to stay strong. there were times i felt jaded that i didnt want to give anymore. there were also times where i convinced myself to bounce back by Faith. Faith is simple but rather complicated.

i felt rotten. inside. Brokenness, which will haunt me so long as i exist. my worthlessness. my vulnerability. my shame. im always stuck with predicaments that disrupt my relationship with HIM.=( shame me ;(.........

arghh i couldnt write anymore;( it makes my tears rolling down. i just hope for the miracle to happen....please;(

*still praying hard looking for HIS guidance*