This holiday I thought, gave me most of the things I always wanted.
I travelled, I spent time with family, I met up with people I missed, I spent and I earned, I watched drama (british, american, french, korean, chinese, errr....hindustan..huhu, malay, and...ahah..cartoonsss, YM'ing..hehe googling and downloading, I lazed around, I relaxed, I… did a lot of things I wanted to do. Well all in all, I had a lot of fun in just this one semester break that I craved for.
A quote from oth would say, "Every song ends, but is there a reason to not enjoy it?" nope. But I can't help feeling distressed when it ends, can I? It's saddening, really, at the thought of leaving all these behind. All these precious little things that made me happy, all these time being at home with family and friends, all these tiny little moments that I'd do anything if I could, to freeze it.
As I look at the calendar, each day, each hour and each second I realized, is inching towards my going back to USM. OMG..its today..huhu (Am I going back today???)Aaargghh..I hate that question! I feel so upset, so disturbed, so distraught. I'm dreading it, to be honest. It's as though nothing over there is worth looking forward to, or to make me a happier person that I am already right now apart from studying. (Yes, you got me right! I love to study, I love to learn. I love to discover and do you have a problem with that?)eheh.....
Sigh fine. I'm probably not on mood now that I sound so pessimistic but who on earth would want to leave their comfort zones? But......(Like my teacher once said, comfort zones is too dangerous..Tarbiyah tidak akan dapat dicapai melainkan hanya kesusahan, kesulitan dan kepayahan)...huhu...I'm a loser then...O Allah, help me and put us in your true and blessing path..AMENN
**The Ultimate JOy ~MARDHATILLAH~ **
"And many a Prophet (i.e. many from amongst the Prophets) fought (in Allahs Cause) and along with him (fought) large bands of religious learned men. But they never lost heart for that which did befall them in Allahs Way, nor did they weaken nor degrade themselves. And Allah loves As-Sabirin (the patient ones, etc.).(Surah: Aal-e-Imran, Verse #: 146 )"