option

dear myself, dont be sad if u are an option. my lecturer used to say, "you have a lot of choices but u dont have choice actually"..huhu thats what life is all about. well, somehow no one prefers to be an option.perhaps, enough is enough. im tired of feeling bad.really=(( i'd rather feel nothing.its better, way easier as well.and i think my heart knows things that my mind cant explain.huhu (T_T) the thing is, im frustrated. frustrated to myself. hopefully this is not a bad sign.='(