g00d VS eViL

raining inside

2011-12-04T18:48:00.002+08:00

truly,i hate dis weekend. dis weekend makes me sick.

bummer

2011-12-04T10:11:00.001+08:00

eventually, im back to my old tasnim..being loved and being left...its sooo me..maybe i was fate to be left aka dumped (damndamndamn)..indeed i dun like da word 'goodbye'..i dunno why..just hate it so much..T_T why theres such word in dis world.damn!.only god knows how it feels like..seriously i hate myself now!god help me! again..its TIME FOR HEALING.i need my soothing thing=((......seriously this time it hurts me a lotttt! what a bummer!

cupid's arrows

2011-11-02T13:33:00.005+08:00

why on earth am i putting these pics anyway....LOL saje mood lovey dovey kli ni. please ignore dis post peeps ;D i've read dis, crush is when someone likes another, when they have butterflies, when they like hanging around the other...hurmm...i've tried and tried to walk away..but i know dis crush aint going away.huhu yet you got me hypnotized so mesmerized....damn!

sign

2011-10-23T19:18:00.003+08:00

again i hate dis feeling rite now. i know dis is a bad sign for me. i have to blow it off before its starts spreading badly.huhu god keep me on da track.please..please..please (T_T) thanx baizura for all your supports.huhu i dont like dis person...datang dan pergi sesuka hati.damn! its soooo life..people come and go.i never expect them to come, but i never wish them to go...='( this couldn't be more unexpected..thinking of it, i'm aching...it hurts me a lot=(...dats y i hate dis feeling!!

Mr. Know It All

2011-10-19T00:51:00.005+08:00

Its super Kelly freaking Clarkson.huhu. she's back with a bang! love dis song much! its soooo true only i know everything about myself! and i wont let u tell me different! ...its just they act like they know u - but they dont know u at all.huhu well peeps, u just dedicate dis song to everybody who thinks that they have the right to dictate to u. huhu gosh.. heard a loads of time today!!! amazing song! i cant get enough of it!

The beginning in the end

2011-10-03T13:07:00.005+08:00

I am now officially graduated from usm. September, 25^th was my C-Day (which is last week but I do have time to dash it off this week.huhu sorry.my bad). The day was so-so.huhu (cause I don’t have any pic with my parents (something came up and they gotta go..huhu) I do expected this person will come but he’s not. He started work already. But I didn’t feel that bad because these 3 angels did come. My bffs (~_^) huhu I luvvvvvv ‘em soooo muchhhh! Thanks fizah n kakcik n kinahros for coming on my C-day. Y’all make my day mesmerizing and astounding. You guys are just awesome!(will update pic later)

wtf

2011-09-29T17:00:00.004+08:00

its not my fault if u think this abbreviation stands for something else. im just saying it because i wanna say it.i'm soooo pissed off!!! damndamndamn!...macam2 orang ade lam dunia ni~~i feel that bad because he's my friend kot aka my colleague..doesnt feel bad at all if he did tell me da truth.but da fact is HE DID NOT..mmg watdaheck btui...gerammmmm aku!choiii!!!

stalker

2011-09-12T19:24:00.001+08:00

huhu i got uninvited stalker...'wmf' stop stalking my blog!=p lalalala

disappear

2011-07-22T21:55:00.001+08:00

It's hard to walk away when you know that things are never gonna get better even if you go.

Gone for good. Cry for nothing....

nothing

2011-07-11T09:53:00.002+08:00

Ah well, some people just need a break and some space ;)

See ya people around.

trail of tears

2011-06-19T16:41:00.003+08:00

..........solemnly i hate when it drops because of men........

what u give u get back.....men hurt u,men heal u......its s000 life ='(

only time

2011-06-19T16:19:00.003+08:00

Who can say

where the road goes

where the day flows

only time..

And who can say

if your love grows

as your heart chose

only time..

Who can say

why your heart sighs

as your love flies

only time..

And who can say

why your heart cries

when your love lies

only time...

Who can say

when the roads meet

that love might be

in your heart

And who can say

when the day sleeps

if the night keeps

all your heart

Night keeps all your heart...

Who knows - only time

zero hour

2011-05-24T13:01:00.002+08:00

today i got interview in uitm kelantan.huhu god i cant control my 'butterfly'.its scattered everywhere in my stomach.huhu cuak dowh.. i dont know why...but i'll try my best and giving all out! guys, please pray for me. thanx.=) n i would like to thank to this person 4 helping me find out about 1 Malaysia..huhu its kind of him..thanx dude!. God bless u!

random thought (part 5)

2011-05-08T10:29:00.002+08:00

unimportant. i hate dis feeling rite now. i knew dis would be bad sign for me. damn! life is unpredictable. A, u help me a lot throughout da years n i almost fall for u. but, B,u came n surprised me. that was so funny. (begging u better stay away from me otherwise i'd fall for u again.shit!) good bye old days. so long old friends. the holiday is here, we gradually change. n da most, i learn that to love is not sinful but to have contacts is. love without contacts is just as painful as loosing.god.i cant believe i say dis.huhu im aching. T_T

i need a doctor

2011-05-07T20:55:00.003+08:00

"I'm about to lose my mind

You've been gone for so long

I'm running out of time

I need a doctor

Call me a doctor

I need a doctor, doctor

To bring me back to life"

epic song ever! i luv da song...n if u dont u gonna need a doctor;p dis is da best ever i heard from dr dre n eminem. thnx 4 da song. i really need a doctor rite now.huhu T_T

fast five

2011-05-07T09:04:00.004+08:00

god fast five is just awesome! i give u 5 star!! my Han (sung kang) is back. i tot he died in fast three.hukhuk vin diesel vs the rock. they're just like brother.huhu (technically yes sbb dua2 botak.haha) i bet fast five is going to be a hell of a movie..i cant wait for fast six.lolz no wonder its opening debut $80 million dollars..huhu god job though.

pray

2011-05-05T13:56:00.001+08:00

Oh My Lord! please keep me on the track. Ya Allah tetapkanlah hatiku. kinda lost.huhu seriusly. *sigh* T_T

option

2011-04-26T21:24:00.002+08:00

dear myself, dont be sad if u are an option. my lecturer used to say, "you have a lot of choices but u dont have choice actually"..huhu thats what life is all about. well, somehow no one prefers to be an option.perhaps, enough is enough. im tired of feeling bad.really=(( i'd rather feel nothing.its better, way easier as well.and i think my heart knows things that my mind cant explain.huhu (T_T) the thing is, im frustrated. frustrated to myself. hopefully this is not a bad sign.='(

courtesy

2011-04-21T21:35:00.002+08:00

i do envy with dis person. dis person is very polite person. dis person had such good attitude. make me hanker for a person like dis. god...only YOU know. T_T (baguihnya la dia nih...leh jatuh hati ak..haha)

****readerspleaseignorethispost.crazyone.lol****

written in the stars

2011-04-21T18:41:00.003+08:00

gosh dis song stuck in my head.i luv da song.'written in the stars' reminds my upbringing.huhu yeah dis song is basically telling u dat ur future is written in the stars so keep fighting for it n will come to u someday (of course our fate is already written by HIM) but 1 thing that make me keen on about dis song is he(da singer) did mentioning how money makes people go evil n change in a very bad way. everyone has dream to chase for money, but eventually money leads us no where which is totally utterly true. people gone crazy.damn! enjoy da song though.

"Oh Written In The Stars

A Million Miles Away

A Message To The Main

Ooooh

Seasons Come And Go

But I Will Never Change

And I'm On My Way"

-by Tinie Tempah ft Eric Tuner

im merely human.*seek HIS forgiveness* T_T

finally,

2011-04-18T10:56:00.002+08:00

i get my life back..i officially ended my degree life. April 15 is independence day 4 me(is it?..lets just pretend..haha).huhu freedom is finally in my hands but it doesnt taste as sweet as i imagined. i dont why. i was like....eh abih dah blja?huhu..deng! but the 'kids' (refer 2 my students) do touched me deeply. seriously. i was so touched by them. though they a bit naughty but they do know how 2 appreciate people. God bless 'em! i'm speechless bcoz i do nothing but they gave me something which i do feel like...oh dear..dis is sooo sweet...*love* n now i feel awkward bcoz today is monday but im not in school anymore...huhu..deng...missing my students much!x0x0 T_T

thank you Allah

2011-04-09T19:54:00.002+08:00

hari ini saya sangat gembira, gembira yang tak terkata (btol ke ayt ak nih..huhu) sebab rezeki saya sangat murah hari ini. pagi, cikgu sekolah belanja makan pagi. tengahari, pelajar belanja makan tengahari, malam, kawan saya pula belanja.....(err..knp ak rs cam pelik jerk ayat bm ak..aduss..sori lerr kwn2..paper bm ak B+ jerk.haha) xkisah lah. jnji ak hepi arini.haha terharu pon ade. syukur alhamdulillah.^_^ *say ur prayer*

'i have a dream'

2011-04-09T19:29:00.003+08:00

I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness
Still another mile....

(make me ponder..HE never leave me behind...huhu *astaghfirullahalazim*)

tense

2011-04-03T19:40:00.003+08:00

okey. enough is enough. these people drive me crazy. sape2 tlg bg ak kawen skng jgk. ptutnye kne kawen dulu sblm msuk practical.huhu.damn!

bizzare

2011-04-01T15:27:00.003+08:00

today a student came 2 me...all of sudden, she pinches me on the cheek...god im shocked! i was like.....errr....okey...n then she said, teacher u r sooo cute! geram sy tgok (god she's a les or wat..haha)....in front of da public okey...huhu so scary..(pelik2 bdk sek nih..huhu)

overload

2011-03-29T21:30:00.002+08:00

hye peps. actually i got a lot of stories 2 share with but i have no time to write it rite now. dis week n next week will be my hectic weeks.huhu so plis pray 4 me. i neeeeeddd ur prayers. thnx guys! luv ya!

***plis pray 4 my 3rd observation aka last observation.huhu (-.-")

bug

2011-03-22T19:21:00.008+08:00

please keep your distance closer. im falling into it. coz all my save-up wishes start coming out. here is the deepest secret nobody knows, the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide. and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart so I carry your heart with me. hoping miracle will happen. please stay by my side. im drowning. pull me out! damn! ('',)

Reminder

2011-03-22T18:12:00.003+08:00

i found this from my fren's blog..quite interesting n juz wanna share

with u guys,

6 perkara Allah sembunyikan

Allah SWT selesai menciptakan Jibrail a.s dengan bentuk yang cantik, dan Allah menciptakan pula baginya 600 sayap yang panjang , sayap itu antara timur dan barat (ada pendapat lain menyatakan 124, 000 sayap). Setelah itu Jibrail a.s memandang dirinya sendiri dan berkata:
"Wahai Tuhanku, adakah engkau menciptakan makhluk yang lebih baik daripada aku?."
Lalu Allah swt berfirman yang bermaksud.. "Tidak"
Kemudian Jibrail a.s berdiri serta solat dua rakaat kerana syukur kepada Allah swt. dan tiap-tiap rakaat itu lamanya 20,000 tahun.
Setelah selesai Jibrail a.s solat, maka Allah SWT berfirman yang bermaksud. "Wahai Jibrail, kamu telah menyembah aku dengan ibadah yang bersungguh-sungguh, dan tidak ada seorang pun yang menyembah kepadaku seperti ibadat kamu, akan tetapi di akhir zaman nanti akan datang seorang nabi yang mulia yang paling aku cintai, namanya Muhammad.' Dia mempunyai umat yang lemah dan sentiasa berdosa, sekiranya mereka itu mengerjakan solat dua rakaat yang hanya sebentar sahaja, dan mereka dalam keadaan lupa serta serba kurang, fikiran mereka melayang bermacam-macam dan dosa mereka pun besar juga. Maka demi kemuliaannKu dan ketinggianKu, sesungguhnya solat mereka itu aku lebih sukai dari solatmu itu. Kerana mereka mengerjakan solat atas perintahKu, sedangkan kamu mengerjakan solat bukan atas perintahKu."
Kemudian Jibrail a.s berkata: "Ya Tuhanku, apakah yang Engkau hadiahkan kepada mereka sebagai imbalan ibadat mereka?"
Lalu Allah berfirman yang bermaksud. "Ya Jibrail, akan Aku berikan syurga Ma'waa sebagai tempat tinggal..." Kemudian Jibrail a.s meminta izin kepada Allah untuk melihat syurga Ma'waa. Setelah Jibrail a.s mendapat izin dari Allah SWT maka pergilah Jibrail a.s dengan mengembangkan sayapnya dan terbang, setiap dia mengembangkan dua sayapnya dia boleh menempuh jarak perjalanan 3000 tahun, terbanglah malaikat jibrail a.s selama 300 tahun sehingga ia merasa letih dan lemah dan akhirnya dia turun singgah berteduh di bawah bayangan sebuah pohon dan dia sujud kepada Allah SWT lalu ia berkata dalam sujud:
"Ya Tuhanku apakah sudah aku menempuh jarak perjalanan setengahnya, atau sepertiganya, atau seperempatnya? "
Kemudian Allah swt berfirman yang bermaksud. "Wahai Jibrail, kalau kamu dapat terbang selama 3000 tahun dan meskipun aku memberikan kekuatan kepadamu seperti kekuatan yang engkau miliki, lalu kamu terbang seperti yang telah kamu lakukan, nescaya kamu tidak akan sampai kepada sepersepuluh dari beberapa perpuluhan yang telah kuberikan kepada umat Muhammad terhadap imbalan solat dua rakaat yang mereka kerjakan.... .."
Marilah sama2 kita fikirkan dan berusaha lakukan... Sesungguhnya Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan enam perkara iaitu :

* Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan redha-Nya dalam taat. * Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan murka-Nya di dalam maksiat. * Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan nama-Nya yang Maha Agung di dalam Al-Quran. * Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan Lailatul Qadar di dalam bulan Ramadhan. * Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan solat yang paling utama di dalam solat (yang lima waktu). * Allah S.W.T telah menyembunyikan (tarikh terjadinya) hari kiamat di dalam semua hari. (http://jaipk.perak.gov.my)

"Hnya kepada Engkaulah kami sembah dan mohon pertolongn" - Surah Al Fatihah:5.

??

2011-03-22T16:08:00.003+08:00

aaaaa...tensen ak ngn dak2 skola nih. pulun btui bdk2 nih duk cri fb ak..huhu sbb tu la spnjg LM nih ak x buh gmbr btui kt fb...i have to private everything..huhu aigooo..bkn xmo approve,tp maleh lagi..nt bla da abih LM blehla nk add..haha mcm2 bdk2 nih..y plng x leh blah ade plak y mtk nk jd boifren cgu..adoyaiii tolong2..somebdy help me...x phm ak ngn bdk2 nih ..sbb tu la ak nk kawen 4bln praktikal nih. haha (menggerunkan pon ada bdk2 nih) haishhh...

random thought (part 4)

2011-03-20T20:38:00.003+08:00

there's no reasons to miss someone. n there's no limit to miss people who we really care. so, lets us just miss whoever we wanna miss. otherwise im not miss 'no way, its all good' huhu. (suke ati ler nk rindu sape pon kan) aigooo T_T (saya rindu semua orang..adoiii...macamne nih..tolong...!!)

crucial

2011-03-17T08:20:00.004+08:00

i'm at high tense all of sudden huhu i will be facing a hectic week for dis coming 2 weeks. huhu dis 2 weeks will be like hell for me because first is my last observation n second is finishing my CC (Competent Communication) - the last 2 tough toastmaster's assignments. huhu i really really need strength. my beloved frens n blog readers do pray for me T_T..huhu i really need ur doa. pliss pliss pliss *bagging like hell* i luv u guys. thanx a lot!

wat?

2011-03-16T16:08:00.006+08:00

what i feel now----->i'm so darn bored - tired of waiting - feel like wanna eat icecream at beach - wat spa & massage pon ok gak lol - no frens to hang out-'esei students tak marking lagi,MALAS nk marking' - planning to do LP for da whole week tp haram x buat2 lg - wanna prepare for my toastmaster assignments 9 n 10 (quite tough though) huhu kill me!shit - kinda miss someone(tp sure dia x miss ak, useless! - miss parents n home, kinda homesick - feel like wanna quit study nk duk umh tgu org msuk minang if possible n if any la h0ho - lastly i dun wanna do anything.nk tdo jek. qada y lps2. huhu . sabar2. 3 minggu ja lagi duk skola tuh. aaaaaa..*pengsan* (sbb byk sgt pkir.haha)

excuse me,

2011-03-12T17:53:00.004+08:00

somebody is mad at me. dis is insane n doesnt make sense at all. i never know until yesterday i know she's mad at me. u guys know why? huhu just because her boyfriend is always talking with me. watdaheck! helloo my dear young lady, u r 17..so your so-called boyfriend. aiyoo pkir logik lerr.. u r all seventeen okey! why da hell u wanna get jealous?? u r all my students n having chatting or talking with students is normal. i talk to everybody k0t. not only him. you think i'm dat crazy to steal ur 'so-called' boyfren. cmon laa i'm 24 okey. n getting married.(err..yeke..calon pon xdak nk married apa..huhu xpe mnipu sunat.hoho)..ape2 jek bdk2 nih. pening ak.huh.nonsense!

school break

2011-03-12T12:06:00.002+08:00

wanna know what's way better than 1 million bucks n getting free stuffs???huhu of course SCHOOL HOLIDAYS. i'm so darn release. *teacher goes mad with excitement jumping n screaming!* yippee akhirnya saat2 y dinanti2 muncul jua. huhu i wanna sleep for da whole week. lol XD i wanna forget about da school for dis coming week. *no way*coz i'm already start missing my school* damn!

'danke'

2011-03-06T12:53:00.006+08:00

staying in da place which we couldnt stand is darnly hard. It’s like a cat jumped over the empire state building n banging our head against da wall everyday.its hard...duh! who ever may not dare to think dat i cannot survive in such dis condish...but having frens like 'em who can cheer me up is better than ever..EVER..juz wanna say THANK YOU VERY MUCH to them for coming along my way n creating a colorful painting in my life (esp my unilife). Thanks 2 my special visitors for coming hangin' around with me whenever i stucked in dis suck island (USM + penang).i have another 1 month to go. no more usm. no more penang.yeah.

muchass graciass guys!

'sedetik lebih'

2011-03-03T19:04:00.004+08:00

by Anuar Zain

OST Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa

Setiap nafas yang dihembus
Setiap degupan jantung
Aku selalu memikirkanmu

Dalam sedar dibuai angan
Dalam tidur dan khayalan
Aku selalu memikirkanmu

Ternyata ku perlukan cinta dari dirimu sayang
Barulah terasa ku bernyawa

Kasihku…ku amat mencintai kamu
Kerana kau beri erti hidup
Ku kan terus mencinta sedetik lebih selepas selamanya

Di kala penuh ketakutan dengan badai kehidupan
Ku bersyukur adanya kamu

Biarlah kehilangan semua yang dimiliki di dunia
Asal masih adanya kamu...

EDRY ABDUL HALIM
KRU Publishing Sdn Bhd

errr..why am i posting dis song??errr..im not in 'jiwang' mood neither. haha sje suke2. jz like da song. but... actually i want 2 dedicate 2 someone..urmm..

student oh student(part 2)

2011-02-21T20:07:00.002+08:00

i was s000 amazed of some of my students who are 'mix' (i mean kacukan la) some of them are 'chindian', 'indlay', 'chinlay' (even bumiputera like kadazan pon ade y kacuk ngn india, jadila 'kadadia' huhu) it's just not only that, the thing is they do know 3 or 4 languages( bhs cina, bhs india, bhs melayu n english) which is i think 'wow'..okey that was bonus point for them so they don't have to toil and moil like hell learning all that languages.*a bit jealous to them*huhu besides, we will be deceived by their face. seriously. when i look at them i was like, muke cam melayu tp india rupenye tp ckp cine aiyooo..pstu there's another person muke cam india tp nme cine then ckp mak aii pekat giler loghat utara die..huhu a bit funny huh. but thats the fact. In Penang there are a lot people like that (sbb sblm nih x penah jmp kn, juz tau theoretically jer.tu y cam teruja skjp.huhu) Allah is Great. Allah The Almighty.T_T HE did create us in various type and forms so we will know each other and then PRAISE HIM a lot.that's what makes us close to HIM. So, the one who should i amazed most is HIM. The Only One our LORD, ALLAH SWT. Have i praise HIM today? *seek forgiveness from Allah* forgive me for being astray and always wandered lost in the dark. forgive me for never thought about all the things you have given to me. I rarely thanked to you.Forgive me and forgive all the muslimin n muslimat.T_T ^^^^muhasabah diri^^^^^

miss

2011-02-20T19:57:00.008+08:00

kind of miss my family now.lately i miss them a lot.they are everything to me.we will stick together no matter what.

F.A.M.I.L.Y is one of the strongest words anyone can say, because the letters of FAMILY means Father And Mother I Love You! ♥ :)

May Allah Bless us. Amin.

4E

2011-02-17T15:19:00.002+08:00

dear blog,

up till now, teaching class 4E is my biggest problem.

sekian, terima kasih.

truly,

the-not-so-perfect-teacher

***i need psychotherapy class.not for my students but 4 me.somebody please help me.='(

rehabilitation part2

2011-02-14T17:22:00.002+08:00

I kind of hate to see my body and my face right now. Really.(huhu sy da jadi si buruk rupa dah=(() like one of the abuse victim.huhu too scared to look. But…this is only the physical outlook. Why on earth do I care this super petty things?..i too worried the scratches outside my body but have I ever worried the sratches ‘inside’ my body (HATI). There are like millions scratches(karat2 jahiliyah) ‘inside’ and I just too blind to see it. In fact I don’t even wanna see it ‘cause I know I’ve across the borderline. and I feel like there’s no way to turn back. I was so confused and only darkness embracing me.=’((

إِنَّ اللهَ لاَ يَنْظُرُ إِلَى صُوَرِكُمْ وَأَمْوَالِكُمْ وَلَكِنْ يَنْظُرُ إِلَى قُلُوبِكُمْ وَأَعْمَالِكُمْ

Maksudnya : Sesungguhnya Allah tidak melihat rupa paras kamu dan harta-harta kamu, akan tetapi Allah melihat hati kamu dan amalan-amalan kamu.

Hadis sahih riwayat Imam al-Bukhari dan Muslim.

Nevertheless, HE did coming. Only just in unexpected way which is only me whether or not to realise it..….i seek forgiveness from Allah. O Allah please forgive me. please please please..T_T But I know Allah loves me.(of course HE loves u t00) .Like HE always do. How? By giving me some ‘tests’. A friend of mine always said to me HE tests, means HE loves u. because HE got jealous seeing u spent most of your time with other things instead of being with HIM. Huhu again, I seek Allah’s forgiveness. I’m too careless(lagha). I’m merely human. Cannot run from doing mistakes. *I seek forgiveness from Allah*

~~in rehabilitation phase ~ please give me your guidance ~~

(Our Lord! we have indeed believed: forgive us, then, our sins, and save us from the agony of the Fire)

[surah Ali' Imran; 3:16]

"shocked"

2011-02-13T16:26:00.003+08:00

i got shocked news juz now. err..actually not dat shocked, i think dis is the funniest thing ever. huhu instead of being adik ipar, jadi kakak ipar plak dah. x ker klakar tuu. h0h0 pndai btui umi wat lawak. i know dis not gonna happen. da thng is joke y umi wat nih tickle my bone. ridiculous! kompem2 la kne reject. adoyaiii. lawak2. (kne bt back up plan nih..huhu kompem p isi borg kt british council after dis. so i can fly nxt year.bln januari jgk. h0h0h0h0)

Mr. Charlie

2011-02-12T17:59:00.003+08:00

Thank you to Mr. Charlie aka Paederus fuscipes Curtis(scientific name) for 'kissing' me badly horrendously n beastly.damn! i got scratches all over my body. (abes calar2 wajahku y suci ini. huhu cali kejammmmm) it was like burning. pedih=(( i can't even touch on it. buruk daa muke ngn tangan ku. T_T i hate penang! or even worst, i hate ~~usm.~~

heartsick

2011-02-12T00:19:00.003+08:00

somebody got mad at me. huhu i don't laa. why is everybody get mad at me lately. starting this february i was like an annoying person. i don't know why. (maybe effect LM kot..huhu) i hurt them. And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me. it just happen like that. gosh! really bizzare. i feel like out of sorts. really depressing and dejecting. (da la sdey ngn 1st observation T_T) hope i'll find the cure. i need my personal doctor.huhu

*******Mr. MZ please sing Insya-Allah, it could be somewhat cheerie thingy for me.huhu

*******So I wanted to take this time out to apologize to everyone for things that I've done without realize it or not.

the one n only

2011-02-10T18:14:00.002+08:00

i started missing 'my love'..the one and only. (tu la ade depan mate wat tatau, dah jauh mule la duk trigt2)damn! i'm annoying n bothersome person. i don't know how to appreciate people. but rather treat people like a heartless person. again damn! serve me right! please forgive me T_T i'm merely human cannot run from doing mistakes. i'm so sorry. i never meant to do so. sorry ='(( i need someone right now.......i'm super pathetic one! T_T

(T_T)

2011-02-09T20:44:00.005+08:00

my first observation was suck! thanks 2 my students for ruin it. congrats to me for choosing the wrong topic today. and congrats to me for allowing my students speak Malay in class while the lecturer was there. wrong topic and wrong time. my voice is t0000 slow and soft (which is even me myself don't know which part is soft 'cause i'm like yelling and shouting at them every time in my class). so overall, everything suck! i was like to stop my degree here right now. so no more observation.huhu (cmne bley amek kos cigu nih...uwaaaa sdey tahap gaban....sdey sdey sdey. ) i was like to cry the whole day. **col (crying out loud..huhu) ='((

random thought (part 3)

2011-02-08T19:23:00.004+08:00

its been a while.....almost 2 years dis person didnt give me a call. all of sudden few days ago dis person did. nothing bad about it just wondering.....huhu but dun worry no hard feeling, just remind me to something not belong to me. somehow i reminisced dis story.

CINTA TAK SEHARUSNYA MEMILIKI
Salman Al Farisi merasakan memang sudah waktunya menikah. Seorang wanita Ansar yang dikenalnya sebagai wanita mukminah lagi solehah juga telah mengambil tempat di hatinya. Tentu saja bukan sebagai kekasih. Tetapi sebagai sebuah pilihan dan pilihan yang dirasa tepat. Pilihan menurut akal sihat. Dan pilihan menurut perasaan yang halus, juga ruh yang suci.

Tapi bagaimanapun, ia merasa asing di sini. Madinah bukanlah tempat kelahirannya. Madinah bukanlah tempatnya tumbuh dewasa. Madinah memiliki adat, rasa bahasa, dan rupa-rupa yang belum begitu dikenalnya. Ia berfikir, melamar seorang gadis pribumi tentu menjadi sebuah urusan yang pelik bagi seorang pendatang. Harus ada seorang yang akrab dengan tradisi Madinah berbicara untuknya dalam khitbah. Maka disampaikannyalah gelegak hati itu kepada sahabat Ansar yang dipersaudarakan dengannya, Abu Darda’.

”Subhanallaah.. wal hamdulillaah..”, girang Abu Darda’ mendengarnya. Mereka tersenyum bahagia dan berpelukan. Maka setelah persiapan dirasa cukup, beriringanlah kedua sahabat itu menuju sebuah rumah di penjuru tengah kota Madinah. Rumah dari seorang wanita yang solehah lagi bertaqwa.

”Saya adalah Abu Darda’, dan ini adalah saudara saya Salman seorang Persia. Allah telah memuliakannya dengan Islam dan dia juga telah memuliakan Islam dengan amal dan jihadnya. Dia memiliki kedudukan yang utama di sisi Rasulullah Shallallaahu ’Alaihi wa Sallam, sampai-sampai beliau menyebutnya sebagai ahli bait-nya. Saya datang untuk mewakili saudara saya ini melamar putri anda untuk dipersuntingnya.”, fasih Abu Darda’ bicara dalam logat Bani Najjar yang paling murni.

”Adalah kehormatan bagi kami”, ucap tuan rumah, ”Menerima anda berdua, sahabat Rasulullah yang mulia. Dan adalah kehormatan bagi keluarga ini bermenantukan seorang sahabat Rasulullah yang utama. Akan tetapi hak jawab ini sepenuhnya saya serahkan pada puteri kami.” Tuan rumah memberi isyarat ke arah hijab, yang di belakangnya sang puteri menanti dengan segala debar hati.

”Maafkan kami atas keterusterangan ini”, kata suara lembut itu. Ternyata sang ibu yang bicara mewakili puterinya. ”Tetapi karena anda berdua yang datang, maka dengan mengharap ridha Allah saya menjawab bahwa puteri kami menolak pinangan Salman. Namun jika Abu Darda’ kemudian juga memiliki urusan yang sama, maka puteri kami telah menyiapkan jawapan mengiyakan.”

Jelas sudah. Keterusterangan yang mengejutkan, ironis, sekaligus indah. Sang puteri lebih tertarik kepada pengantar daripada pelamarnya! Itu mengejutkan dan ironis. Tapi saya juga mengatakan indah karena satu alasan; reaksi Salman. Bayangkan sebuah perasaan, di mana cinta dan persaudaraan bergejolak berebut tempat dalam hati. Bayangkan sebentuk malu yang membuncah dan bertemu dengan gelombang kesedaran; bahawa dia memang belum punya hak apapun atas orang yang dicintainya. Mari kita dengar ia bicara.

”Allahu Akbar!”, seru Salman, ”Semua mahar dan nafkah yang kupersiapkan ini akan aku serahkan pada Abu Darda’, dan aku akan menjadi saksi pernikahan kalian!”♥♥♥

Cinta tak harus memiliki. Dan sejatinya kita memang tak pernah memiliki apapun dalam kehidupan ini. Salman mengajarkan kita untuk meraih kesedaran tinggi itu di tengah perasaan yang berkecamuk rumit; malu, kecewa, sedih, merasa salah memilih pengantar –untuk tidak mengatakan ’merasa dikhianati’-, merasa berada di tempat yang keliru, di negeri yang salah, dan seterusnya. Ini tak mudah. Dan kita yang sering merasa memiliki orang yang kita cintai, mari belajar pada Salman. Tentang sebuah kesedaran yang kadang harus kita munculkan dalam situasi yang tak mudah.Sergapan rasa memiliki terkadang sangat memabukkan..

Rasa memiliki seringkali membawa kelalaian. Maka menjadi seorang manusia yang hakikatnya hamba adalah belajar untuk menikmati sesuatu yang bukan milik kita, sekaligus mempertahankan kesedaran bahawa kita hanya dipinjami. Inilah sulitnya. Tak seperti seorang tukang parkir yang hanya dititipi, kita diberi bekal oleh Allah untuk mengayakan nilai guna karuniaNya. Maka rasa memiliki kadang menjadi sulit ditepis.

student oh student

2011-02-07T12:03:00.003+08:00

i don't know how to describe this feeling now. i start 'meet'ing my students everywhere.huhu i mean in penang la. wherever i go i still meet them. haishhh (bahaye nih..xleh nk wat jahat depan students.haha)

they were like, "hai ticer...ticer kuar ngn sape...ticer nk p mna....blablabla" huhu x tau nk hepi ke nk sedih ke ble students tgur tgh jalan.huhu..errr... coz when i met them i will act like a friend. but in school i did treat them as students. really like a student. huhu so it was like....am i have 2 personality?? or being hypocrite?? or double characters....huhu pelik2.

btw, its good of them la sbb rjin duk btegur sapa me tgh jalan.haha but be out of my way. juz feel unease. still dont get it why.err sori yea my studs. luv ya!hehe

holidays

2011-02-06T21:44:00.004+08:00

i ruined my holidays. instead of being a marvelous hols it turned up to horrendous one. siao liao. aigoo T_T please forgive me='( i am what i am. i'm sick of being compared. i'm sorry. i got my own style n my own life. stop judging me!i'm sorry peeps 4 being such an annoying person. i luv people in my own way. sorry again.

mode: ggrrrr (angry)

2011-02-06T16:28:00.002+08:00

f*** u pcik!!!!! tua x sdar dri.ak benciiii nek bas rapid.rmai gilerrr org.mai mna la smua mnusia nih.pstu hmpit2 org.wtf!!mmg sial la pcik tuh.helo ak pkai bju kurung okey.aaarrrgghhhhhh geram2. benci2. im gonna give BIG F word to that damn old man!!!!!.budusss

flu+CNY

2011-01-26T16:06:00.002+08:00

god i hate flu. huhu its coming again. penang is freaking hot hot hot. not dat kind of hot, but da other one of hot. i got flu+headache+ sore-throat = complete combination. so ape lagi, tidoooo..zzzzzz huhu i think for class 4E i want 2 request microphone from pengetua, so no need to deadly shout. huhu god like wanna give f word...haishh i have to crack my brain whenever teaching them...help2 plis2

mode : blur

2011-01-24T21:55:00.002+08:00

instead of blur i'm blearing now='( huhu why must this happen to me now='( i am very worsted and downhearted. Aaaaargghhh...why why n why...sob3 T_T :( ***frown mood***

somebody please....help me:(

i'm sick

2011-01-18T22:26:00.002+08:00

thank you very much to all my students for make me sick. aigoo..huhu i got symptoms tido-tak-lena, mandi-tak-basah, makan-tak-kenyang because of them. Semua ni kerana my 'lovely' students. i love my students.tettttt.huhu somebody please help me. huhu please........='(

mode:love teaching

2011-01-17T20:25:00.002+08:00

i cant believe this.huhu i started to love teaching.thanx to Allah for giving me such good and obliging students. they are all tender hearted only just a bit naughty. BUT sometimes they act like an evil.huhu teaching form 4A and 4E make me like tuttt...aarrghh because they are 2 obviously different classes and need a lot of tranquil and forbearing.huhu O Allah please help me. Thank u Allah. ok, i gotta go. my new 'hubby' is calling me. oh LP i love u. Thanx 4 make me 'sick'.damn!

2011

2011-01-15T22:34:00.004+08:00

Woww. 5 posts in a day. What am i? blog maniac? Haha nope. only-ordinary-girl-who-don’t-know-where-t0-burst out.huhu ***nasib ko ler wahai en.blog bile anda kini mnjadi tempat untuk buang perasaan yg bukan2 ni..n where freedom of speech is applied, bersabar yea utk 4 bulan nih. H0h0***

This New Year makes me wanna be a new tasnim.yup.i got new missions, new perspectives and new resolutions. theres so many ‘hak’ that I left before.huhu n yet, this awful me didn't manage to fulfill any of the ‘hak’ till now..n even worst, this awful me feels like she wants to give up on everything and just settling everything down n let it be just like what it should be instead of working towards what it should be..what a useless her!

The starts of a new year always leave me with a feeling of positive anticipation. It's like stepping into a new world where every possibility is there for us to achieve if only we believe and try hard enough. Unfotunately (or fortunately?), 23 years on this earth has thought me at least one very important thing, you never know what you'll get. You plan and you dream and you work and you hope but most of the time you'll be very much surprised by the turn of events.

The disappointments, the failures, the hopelessness, the wanting-to-give-up, the why-does-everything-seems-to-go-wrong, the whatever and what the heck? Hehe. But so it seems, that the human spirit never ceased to amaze me. You somehow WILL find the strength and the courage to stand up and move on. Because frankly speaking, that's what life really is about don't you think? Keep Marching On.

And where is our destination? To God. Always to Him. Moving forward to Our Creator. Because in everything that we do, for every second that we spend on any endeavor, if it doesn't bring us closer to Him, is there any happiness left to hope for?

Here's to a brand new year, with a brand new hope and a renewed sense of faith.

Bring it on 2011! (like a new birth..^^,)

my craziness..huhu

2011-01-15T17:58:00.006+08:00

its coming again. dont ask me why.huhu its just happen.as simple as that.im pretty sure u guys might be shocked whenever u see his talent.a gift i can say.huhu the first time i saw him in American Award, god i love his voice.this boy is sooooo cute. i am......aaa...i dont know what to say. u guys just watch all his videos. his voice is super duper awesome!ladies n gentlemen, i give u.....Greyson Chance, a 13 years old prodigious singer. catch his single, 'Waiting outside the lines'.

picking up myself

2011-01-15T13:31:00.001+08:00

Sweeping off the cobwebs!

Trying to bring back the writing mood.

It's been a while...

Life is for rent

2011-01-15T13:28:00.000+08:00

"Ya Tuhan kami. Berikanlah kami Rahmat dari sisi-Mu dan sempurnakanlah petunjuk yang lurus bagi kami dalam urusan kami" [al-Kahf:10]

~reminder~

2011-01-15T13:17:00.003+08:00

i know He loves me.......and will always do

well, if i keep on behaving being more than a good muslim~~

"Segala sesuatu yang menimpa seorang muslim, baik berupa rasa letih, sakit, gelisah, sedih, gangguan, gundah gelana, mahu pun duri yang mengenainya (adalah ujian baginya). Dengan ujian itu,Allah mengampuni dosa-dosanya."

(Muttafaq 'alaih)

I’d love to share this hadith with u guys. What a good reminder,insyaAllah for those who always grumble and complain huhu especially me….. we should actually be grateful for the 'all that'. He gave us 'all that' for that He cares for us, which means that He always looks after us, for that He never forget us.. for that, soon He can reward us with His heaven..Subhanallah~ shame of me...T_T

Just so u know

2011-01-14T17:04:00.002+08:00

salam...

just simple and short message here..

well, i dedicate this song(not-so-new-and-superevergreen-song)..especially for someone..a 'someone' that might or might not be reading my blog..

and i dedicate this for u guys too..

hoping that..well, at least, u guys already know whose dis song belongs to and u guys just rock my world..i love u all!

guess that's all for now..

when a song can tell more than a thousand words, i will just let it singing~~(Shayne Ward-All My Life)

I will never find another lover sweeter than you, sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover more precious than you, more
precious than you
Girl you are close to me you're like my mother,
Close to me you're like my father,
Close to me you're like my sister,
Close to me you're like my brother
You are the only one my everything and for you this song I sing

All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

I said you're all that I'm thinking of.....
Said, I promise to never fall in love with a stranger,
You're all I'm thinking of, I praise the Lord above,
For sending me your love, I cherish every hug,
I really love you

All my life,I've prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you,
All my life I've prayed for someone like you

Yes I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do, love me too

You're all that I ever known, when you smile, on my face, all I see is a glow.
You turned my life around, you picked me up when I was down,
You're all that I ever known, when you smile your face glows
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever known, when you smile on your face all I see is a glow,
You picked me up when I was down and I hope that you feel the same way
too,
Yes I pray that you do love me too

All my life, I've prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

In a relationship

2011-01-13T15:13:00.003+08:00

Now i'm "in a relationship" with Lesson Plan. huhu crazy huh! who cares!huhu u know why. because i keep thinking about 'him' day n nite, every single day n every second! god i'm truly in love! in love with 'Rancangan Pengajaran' huhuhu shitto. there's no cure. i'm sick lover. 'He' steal my freetime. 'He' never leave me alone. 'He' always by my side. even in my dream, i dream of 'him' gosh! i can't hide from 'him'. 'He' always chasing after me. really this is bizarre! huhu kalo lah 'he' ni org btul kan best.huhu im still waiting.T_T penantian satu penyeksaan. Thanx for Greyson for singing this for me "waiting outside the lines". i luv greyson. *luvluvluv*

oh boy~

2011-01-07T20:32:00.002+08:00

god dis cuuutttteeee gabby chattering boy make me fall in love with him. i love this kiddo.damn.i wanna a baby like dis. haha thanx to kakcik n her famly 4 introducing dis lovely kid.i cant stop listening to this chatty. he so cute n gerammm tengok pipi dia. h0h0 suke dgr dia ckp."abangah gurau jer" *lovestruck*

random thought (part 2)

2011-01-03T16:55:00.002+08:00

huhu wat a misery life i had. i got 2 pathetic things rite now. 1st is i 'have to' teach form 4 students (with all da degil2 one) and 2nd i miss someone who might not miss me at all.huhu uwaaaa...sdey2 (but i do really miss dat 'someone'..siao liao @_@) aigooo....='(

LM oh LM! (part 2)

2011-01-02T21:14:00.002+08:00

haha..ye ye jek part 2. di kala ke'cuak'an nih..tbe2 prangai jd x btui. huhu LM nih mbuat kmi rsa nk kawen. apa??kawen??haha aah kawen. plis somebdy tlg la kawen ngn dri ini skrg. kawen kontrak 4 bulan pon jdi la.haha i need hubby for 4 month. (truly ridiculous!lol) so sape y bminat sile lah berbuat demikian d talian hayat 012-984**** ( plis pm me k 4 full num..huhu) syarat utama satu jek, MUST STAY AT PENANG for 4 MONTH(simple je kan syrat die...huhu) sile2 mai2 terbuka kpd smua lelaki warganegra Malaysia shja...kedatgn anda sgt di alu2 kan.h0h0 (ini serius....nyanyi ala2 wonderpets=plol) siapa sanggup??

LM oh LM!

2011-01-02T15:23:00.001+08:00

lembabnye usm ni bt kje. aisssyyy

rehabilitation

2010-12-30T23:58:00.005+08:00

i think i need some 'rehab'.meditation maybe.huhu =.='

"So when the time gets hard
There’s no way to turn
As He promises to you
He’ll always be there
To bless us with His love and His mercy coz
As He promises to you
He’ll always be there"...........i luv dis quote very much!

blurry

2010-12-30T23:53:00.003+08:00

im in blurry mood. @_@ huhu rse cm 'ting tong' ja..h0h0 huhu mmg la LM make me suck=(((((

m00d>>>>sangat serabut!!

secret admire

2010-11-02T15:24:00.003+08:00

oh gosh i know dis is crazy..but i cant stop myself being a 'woo' person..huhu actually im not. i dunno, i juz admiring him. i never see him angry which makes me so impressed with him. god i like dis chum. really! it might sound cliche but dis is da fact. crazy huh? yup, wat else 2 do. i like him (",) haha. siao liao! lol;p i've asked him once, i nver see u angry or in hatred thingy..or dun u have any angry hormone in ur body(hehe lbey kurg la..), then he said, its simple, u get nothing but a piece of crap. kalo marah pon bkn bleh settle problem pon..huhu damn he's rite. im gonna take n learn dis. btw, he's very suit with his job. God bless us!

why 'S'

2010-10-24T10:45:00.003+08:00

haha what is 'S' actually. I purposely didn't write it in full spelling cause I hate that word really. huhu people keep asking me 'why are u still single'...yes the 'S' word is definitely for 'single' and hell yeah i still hate it and my answer would be, 'cause i luv n hepi to be single' (ironically) of course i'm lying....most of us don't want to be single......tipulah kalo korg ckp korg suke duk single...but if u are, then u are an extraordinary person..haha lol. but sometimes my answer would be 'i like to be like oldies, biar mk bpk y plih'..haha lol..I know this might be ridiculous but…..yeah it is true – ‘sy trma ja sape2 y msk meminang sy’ huhu.. they ‘shocked!’..haha to extend of ‘this’ statement, I would like to make it as clear as crystal about this. Some of my friends did asked me about my Mr.Right I mean partner life. because they too curious why am I still single.(heh ske ati la ak nk single ke double ke…=p) am I too choosy.? Absolutely not. If I am a choosy one, then my criteria would be---à handsome man, rich man (so that he can bring me travel to Eiffel Tower..huhu I luv eiffel tower), high standard worker n again handsome and handsome and handsome..lol…(n stiap kli raya blk umah ak jek..haha) nonsense!ridiculous! (smpi ke tua la ak x kawen) because I know the probability to get all the criterias is only 1%...it’s unachievable…who I am to do so. I don’t need all that. I don't need his 'handsome'. I don't need his wealth...all I need is just he himself. The only thing that I need is a loving heart. I want a heart who can love me forever ( dunia & akhirat ) insyaAllah, amin. It is more than enough. It’s just because nobody can’t neither buy nor sell the heart. A guy who dare to make a confession that he likes me is a guy who dare to give his heart to me. (so far xde lg la y brani mngaku..haha sbb tu la duk single smpi ke tua..haha) but, we cannot force it as well. It comes naturally. Everything comes naturally, why would i be worry then.. it should be no problem if I stay single till the last because Allah knows what BEST for me. so I just let my parents choose my future husband because I believe they will choose da best for me. Plus, I do believe with what they said that “parents’ choice” is the best rather than “lady’s choice”,…hehe yet, I still can enjoy liking any guy that I want (sje syok2..thay guy bkn tau pon ak ska dia..h0h0 suke diam2 sudeh..=p) because it is natural and normal a woman like a man.. a woman like a woman that’s abnormal and forbiden. (kata2 dipetik dr pakcik Rosdi) huhu.....so,as a conclusion happy to be single. haha

just the way you are

2010-10-21T21:10:00.005+08:00

omg this song is amazing. I lovee this song. I was like "best giler lagu nih! I want a guy like that!" huhu this has to be the sweetest song I've ever heard! I really want a guy to dedicate this song to me someday..its beautiful! I'd be the happiest girl in the world if a guy said that to me.*lovetruck* huhu..lol

leavin'

2010-10-21T09:42:00.004+08:00

It's Saturday. Saturday reminds me about last week. My parents went for pilgrimage to mecca last Saturday. Sending them to airport is the most hate part. (huhu x suke3) they're leaving. I can't stop my teardrop to fall down. I burst into tears. I don't know why. It's just my eyes want to cry huhu...ok off with the sad part...now come to the dazzle part which is i never ever ever do this before but last Saturday i did. I've mentioned his name for the first time and his prayers as well to my mum.crazy huh?..huhu...*blushing*.....I don't know..it's just my mouth want to say that..hehe...(I hope my parents will pray the best for us)...and also my relatives' and friends' prayers because they said mecca is the holy place where our prayer would be accepted and fulfilled.huhu amin! May Allah granted us syurga jannah and obviate us from hell, amin.

**Smg my parents selamat pergi & selamat pulang, amin ^_^

stress

2010-10-17T22:38:00.004+08:00

they said stress is good..it shows that your life is normal..huhu (normal ker...) i'm to0 stress of what happen around me. so many things happened. i'm merely human full of weaknesses. i HAVE TO depend on HIM. only HIM no others. cmon tasnim, bertahan!

**smg Allah bg kekuatan pd ku..huhu

i'm counting.....

2010-09-30T16:47:00.004+08:00

what's a title! A bit curious huh..hehe Nothing actually i'm just counting days 4 finishing my degree. huhu God bless me, i can't wait anymore. huhu cepatla abis degree. Next sem is my practical at school. I might be posting in Kulim which is not my 1st choice..huhu Just remember Allah knows what best for me. As long as i got moral support from HIM n him..=)) it should be ok. Actually i got a lot assignments to do n submit now....but i don't have heart to do it now. How i wish time could run fast now... as fast as 'that moment'. T_T. But thank u 2 Mr.Bruno Mars 4 coming on time. I love ur songs, dude! "Just the way you are" u kick me out! Hell yeah i like dis song damn much! kinda soul meditation, juz to kick my burden out 4 a while.... How i wish 'someone' could sing it for me=)) erm....how about my Mr.Right **********..haha go dreaming la cik tas oii..(mjur sgt ler klu dia nk nynyi kt ang) hahahha....well...we'll see then. hehe But i do love da video clip of dis song! Juz love it! mucho-mucho one...haha K, sambung wat keje...=p tata...

random thought

2010-09-17T10:14:00.003+08:00

heart-rending at highest peak...=(( i can't bear dis anymore. somebody please comfort me. T_T am i born with a misery life? huhu......if only.....*sigh*...Allah knows da best. embrace me with YOUR LOVE. i do love him...........********** But nothing's greater than the rush that comes with your embrace and in this world of loneliness.

enie menie minie more

2010-09-12T20:47:00.003+08:00

salam,..

dear blog...

EID MUBARAK to all muslims. Selamat hari raya n Maaf Zahir Batin.(^_^) everybody's talking about 'raya' n wishing for 'raya'...and me t00...but actually not....not same as usual. i feel like....hmm...melancholy something...i don't know...woebegone had covered my life this time...i feel very very dejected..huhu worst raya ever,,..huhu *i hate dis*.....i need my 'soothing thing'...********** is my soothing thing...Allah help me.....T_T

~Marching On~

2010-09-07T20:11:00.010+08:00

Marchin’ On by One Republic (1R)

First of all, this song is amazing. Secondly, the video is super amazing. I love how the song is a sort of remix on the original. So basically, its the best! :D damn I love the voice, I love the melody, I love the beat, its to perfect >. This song means a lot to me, especially right now in my life…..T_T

Somehow, this song makes me tear a little at the beginning, because I can relate to it. Then, when he moves into the bridge and you hear the whole band, it sounds pretty darn beautiful :) Go 1R! Every song they make everyone can relate to it. It doesn’t matter if its happy, sad or both at the same time.. yet hopeful. erm…..Very good chill song though. And FYI, IF u feel low .........THIS SONG ISPERFECT!.(I mean nearly perfect laa..huhu) ….. life is supposed to be a challenge, it's not supposed to be easy. So, march on…

I heard this song for the first time and today and I can’t stop listening to it..(I mean I can’t stop listening to 1R songs) I've been thinking about everything they're singing about in this song lately and it’s crazy how this happens.

Anyways I get these lyrics, I mean I understand them well. Every song they make their lyrics always have a meaning. It's like a story being told in your ears but with a tune :) I can personally relate to this song.. at times when I felt like life is so hard for me, this song reminds me to be strong......Hail OneRepublic for making such a beautiful and inspirational song....this song reminds me to be strong in spite of all the hardships in life.

For those days we felt like a mistake,
Those times when love's what you hate
Somehow
We keep marchin on

For those nights that I couldn't be there,
I've made it harder to know that you know
That somehow
We'll keep movin on

There's so many wars we fought
There's so many things we're not
But with what we have
I promise you that
We're marchin on
We're marchin on

For all of the plans we've made
There isn't a flag I'd wave
Don't care where we've been
I'd sink us to swim
We're marchin on
We're marchin on

For those doubts that swirl all around us
For those lives that tear at the seams
We know
We're not what we've seen

Oh
For this dance we move with each other
There ain't no other step
Than one foot
Right in front of the other
Oh

There's so many wars we fought
There's so many things we're not
But with what we have
I promise you that
We're marchin on
We're marchin on

For all of the plans we've made
There isn't a flag I'd wave
Don't care where we've been
I'd sink us to swim
We're marchin on
We're marchin on

Right Right Right Right Left
Right Right Right Right Left
Right Right Right Marchin On

We'll have the days we break
And we'll have the scars to prove it
We'll have the bombs that we saved
And we'll have the heart
Not to lose it

For all of the times we fought
For all of the things I'm not

Oh!
You put one foot in front of the other
We move like we ain't got no other
We go where we go we're marchin on
Marchin on

There's so many wars we fought
There's so many things we're not
But with what we have
I promise you that
We're marchin on
We're marchin on
Right Right Right Right Left
Right Right Right Right Left
Marchin On
Marchin on

For hundredth times I love this song; heard it for the first time today and I had it on repeat for the whole day. For some reason this song gives me hope to conquer something in my life and always look forward to something pleasant. I had a multiple eargasm. But, I dunno why, some hated Timbaland's version. It’s like a cat jumped over the empire state building..hello,,squeezzee me, it’s not okey! It’s beautiful songs. Just like a completed version. Maybe EPIC song as well. Huhu…

All I can say is……I loooovveeee OneRepublic *lovestruck*.. This band is awesome. I think most of people are getting "sunk to swim" on music by justin bieber(JB). I can’t get why the bit video just has about 50 seconds by justin is to be viewed over 10 mil views only in 1 week. Otherwise , 1R's always giving to us some tracks we can say loudly "AWESOME" and their videos are no sex, seriously super-simple but that's enough to prove that without sex clip things, 1R also can sell it! You 're seeing in the video, just have only "1 scene" behind and the lights of this are simple too.. People are forgetting what real music is. They get wrapped in all this pathetic and meaningless drama and sex scandal crap that can't come close to comparing to real musicians like OneRepublic

This is exactly why they are my favorite band. They are a BAND! They don't just place drums and guitar. They play instruments!!! A true band, and true artists! OneRepublic will always be my favorite BAND! 1R makes music that isn’t like music from today..its not just about a gf or bf or cheatin n on ur bf or gf or how hot ur bf or gf is thats pretty much what music is today its club hits and dance music..yah lady gaga does make big hit and I believe she is a musical genius but 1R music is so different its wholesome and makes u feel good it has meaning behind it.

1R can really create good music! this song blows your mind away. I'm so proud of these guys and Ryan Tedder is one of the few real talented people these days! (“,) 1R know how to hit those notes that give you that little ache in your chest and lump in your throat. So emotional and haunting, love it! 1R is damn genius. And who cares if others don't recognize 1R, we'll just spread the word and wake up all those drones who like the crappy auto tuned, soulless music that never should have even been made. Otherwise lets march on (: let's lead some others along the way too.

Wow…what a long post! Haha..am I promoting one republic? erm….explicitly no, implicitly yezzaa..haha no u guys can’t imagine how I feel it. Huhu Hanya tuhan y tau..h0h0 They’re just Rock My Socks ;) One Republic Are Amazing:D

OneRepublic - like no other. it just SCREAMS original!!!!!!!!!

Reasons to smile=)

2010-08-23T23:05:00.003+08:00

The night walk,
the late coffee,
the prayers as they could be.
Contentment of one that seek
the meaning of life in it.

Ramadhan Kareem.

For the chance to pray,
for the urge to sahur,
for the time to recite Quran,
for the fasting time,
for the tarawikh
and more to come,
I thank You, the Most Merciful.
Thank You Allah

huhu...just random thoughts. why am i lately talking like a poet. what i am? a laureate..haha absolutely nope! i don't know. lately i'm just freaked out. all i want to do is just go home. meet my parents, my siblings..so we can sahur n break the fast together. oh i'm so darn to be at home.T_T i miss my family ^_^ huhu

*****gambar hiasan semata-mata..hee=)

Drops of favourite thoughts.

2010-08-22T20:30:00.001+08:00

From the pages of unknown numbers to the first (second) new found page.

Hello life, I am back.
To share but not to reveal.
To give but not showing.

Life has been busy, but things keep me going.
Ups and downs, laughs and tears.
Lost some, found another.
Pick a moment of your most favourite,
cherish it while you still have time.
I am doing the best that I can.
Not too bad.
Living with things to ponder,
mistakes to be taken as reminders,
hopes of having tomorrow as a better place
to be.

Happy Ramadhan to you and you.

Have a blast one!

craziness

2010-04-30T16:06:00.003+08:00

Tasnim is in happy mode.for not big reason i felt happy today......keep smiling and smiling and smiling =] *grinn. maybe because today is friday aka 'sayyidul ayyam' (if i not mistaken laa sbb da lme tgl bhsa arab..hehe) urm maybe because i've received a calling from my parents this morning. i miss 'em sooo much.(God bless 'em) or maybe i got another reason to be happy too.errr maybe because of ********* too.i feel excited whenever ********* appears.maybe it's my 'soothing' thing.haha.....or maybe....i had a huge crush on *********.huhu did i??madness comes again.. lol XD

U know i am random
Hahaha ~.~

it's crapping again

2010-04-29T12:20:00.005+08:00

I must have been very much disturbed now
to suddenly thinking of what i'm supposedly not
Once again i feel like.....
how do they do that?? *still wondering yet impressing
do what??eheh...playing piano (^_^)
sometimes i was like
how come people good (i mean very very good) at playing piano
very impressive (two thumbs up!)
i do fall in love with people who can play piano
i don't know why
i just like it
hurrmmm
~~~

heh crazy..lol xD

Orbiting train of thoughts

2010-04-16T09:58:00.003+08:00

sometimes in life you wish for things you don't deserve.

and when you can have it, do you take it right away?
or will you pause, let go, and try to earn it back instead?
...................................
....................
........
*let's ponder

thanks to One Republic for creating this(below) song.......*lovestuck~~
i love this song....deep meaning though! huhu..

Secrets
by One Republic

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kind of boring
Need something that i can confess

Till all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no,
I've been on the brink, so

[CHORUS]
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
I'm sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time
Don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm Gonna give all my secrets away

My God,
amazing how we got this far
It's like were chasing all those stars
Who's driver shining big black cars

And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Seen it Straight to go
I don't really like my flow, no, so

[CHORUS]
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
I'm Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time
Don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics never jump in line
I'm Gonna give all my secrets away

Got no reason
Got no shame
Got no family
I can blame
Just don't let me disappear
I'mma tell you everything

[CHORUS x2]
Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
I'm Sick of all the insincere
So I'm gonna give all my secrets away
This time
Don't need another perfect lie
Don't care if critics ever jump in line
I'm Gonna give all my secrets away

All my secrets away (x2)

***everybody's not perfect...let bygone be bygone...
***life's about changing.....
***so, strive 4 ur life, try ur best n let ALLAH do da rest (^_^)

p/s: huhu...juz being like a piece of crap dikala musim exam..eheh

~h0ping f0r HIS bLessing~

2010-04-11T18:31:00.021+08:00

Assalamualaikum, dear my blog n bloggers……..

Hola, bonjour, your beautiful young lady has been disappeared for a very very long time, kinda miss her huh?? yeah I knew it! =P..kui3

Just as how you guys have expected again, another long hiatus. Well, my sincerest apologies that this misery isn't going to end as I won't find myself updating in awhile. Thanks for all those daily hits anyway, you know who you stalkers are, and I really do appreciate them.

All those silly-silly things had huddled my life. Hell yes I’m freaking out myself doing those sucky things. Pheww! Thank god it’s over.

Cut down TT(talking time) No chattering(for the sake of saving times…h0h0)I mean for the time being la…so here’s a brief update of my pretty dull life since the last post.

I won’t tell u’l da whole stories word by word instead let the pictures tell u everythings..*winks! As they said pictures speak thousands words. So here u g0 :-

[ attending TOT (training of trainers) at KTD ]

[ attending Atiyah's engagement day ]

[ enjoying ourselves at Lost World Tambun ]

[ attending Farhah's wedding at Bagan Serai ]

[ visiting toy museum at Batu Feringgi ]

[ attending Asma's wedding ]

[ sight-seeing at i-city wif tiyah ]

[ SUKAD at USM Kubang Kerian ]

[ SUKAD - FH team netball at HUSM ]

[ attending NADWAH Zon Utara ]

[ doing microteaching ~ 8kali kot rakaman..huhu ]

[ involving in workshop writing module for Sabahan 1st Phase ]

[ watching teater "Cintaku Bersujud lagi" (not on purpose..huhu) at Dewan Budaya ]

[ attending kinda 'rehabilitation' WISE by my beloved murabbi Ust Abd Hadi ]

*photo taken from zubet's photos. tq 2 him^_~

[ attending interview for international practicum ]

[ attending khalida's bro's wedding known as MUABO..huhu]

*misi utama-nk jmp khlida jek sbnye..hee

[ attending TESOL post-graduate Colloquium ]

*saje p amek smngt utk bt master nt..hihi ^_^

[ involving in writing module for Sabahan....again..haihh..2nd phase plok ]

* nsb bek mkn sedap spnjg workshop nih...ngeh3=p

[ teaching tuition every weekend for lower secondary school ]

*huhu..penat dowh....T_T

******can u imagine my every weekends within 16 weeks full with dis xtivities...^rolling eyes^..

BUT.....

------------>i can't imagine IF all dis my full-xtivities-weekends didn't get any blessing or values from HIM..it's nothing....huhu na'uzubillah

......How bloody frustrated I am......='(

*dumps*dumps*dumps

"O Allah, do forgives me, forgives my parents, forgives my family n all muslimin wal muslimat, Amin."

2010-01-28T07:42:00.011+08:00

I like dis....

but dis is wat i like most.....

Definitely, we can't live without HIM...

O Allah The Almighty, please guide us n show us the true path ^^,

May Allah bless us..amin!

typical of me

2009-11-12T18:00:00.005+08:00

dun know wat 2 say..
i was like..why r u so kind 2 me...
it was like a delusion..
oh god im losing my mind...huhu
knp lah dia baek sgt...
kalo baek, baek sgt...kalo y cm taik tuh..huhu tuhan sja tau.
Smg Allah melindungi mereka2 y baek.(T_T)
Its hard to deal with da pain of losing sumbdy! coz wat hurts da most is being so close.

i luv my family (^_^)
*ali izzat not in pic

p/s : cmon tasnim caiyok3..aja2 fightng 4 my last paper next week.

strugle 4 my multimedia paper

'Soulfood'

2009-10-27T00:48:00.009+08:00

Renung2kan dan selamat ber'exam' hehe....(~_^) x0x0~~ Bittaufiq wannajah.

morale down ~~

2009-10-20T00:08:00.005+08:00

Directionless lives ; nowhere to go.

I don’t know why….I’m just feel that my morale is down…*sigh* I just feel tired. Too tired of every thing happen around me. I'm feeling low, today. Because I feel like a piece of crap. And everything around me seems invisible and transparent. I'm so oblivious to the obvious because I can't see. Too overwhelmed. I don't want to feel, because I refuse to give my emotions and impulsive thoughts a stronghold in my mind. I still can't get used to it.

O Allah, gives me strength…

In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful.

1. In the Name of Allâh, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

2. All the praises and thanks be to Allâh, the Lord of the 'Alamîn (mankind, jinns and all that exists).

3. The Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

4. The Only Owner (and the Only Ruling Judge) of the Day of Recompense (i.e. the Day of Resurrection)

5. You (Alone) we worship, and You (Alone) we ask for help (for each and everything).

6. Guide us to the Straight Way

7. The Way of those on whom You have bestowed Your Grace, not (the way) of those who earned Your Anger (such as the Jews), nor of those who went astray (such as the Christians).

It's just a game (^_~)

2009-10-15T20:39:00.005+08:00

Just a few, short, padat dan ringkas post...huhu
I'm leaving this fake world for Allah's sake.
I got netball tournament OPEN UITM at Uitm Seri Iskandar, Perak this weekend, 17hb-18hb Oct.
Do pray for me yar..
I’m trying my Best..heh ( supposedly la...h0h0 )
All the best to my fellas...cayok3 guys!

Of course it's only a game meh....huhu...c'mon usm we do our best..yeahhh!!( wlaupon kte kalah ngn johan masum, UM aritu..hehe....wish y'all best of luck!)

wHaT A Relief!

2009-10-11T12:03:00.014+08:00

It’s been a long, hectic, exhausting week for me after the Hari Raya break.

Mentally, emotionally, physically. I didn’t think I would be this drained.

Even in my sleep, I am not in peace! I’m plagued by dreams,way, only to have them plunge me back into harsh reality when my alarm starts ringing.

Quiz, assignments, presentations, final reports..argghh…I never knew my brain can work this hard.

And now, what a relief, I’m free from those sucky things before the bloody hell final exams appear soon. Aaaaa…I don’t want to talk about it! Let’s skip it!

Last night, is our freedom night. All the TESOLians should clap your hands for our work done..*lol*.

Not really in uber mood in talking too much.

Just showing you guys some nice pics during lantern festival at USM. We’re having our great time there.

Yeah!

a nite in da lite.......yippe!

nice shot! Credit to me..ahaks *winks*

Attention to------>

2009-09-25T07:45:00.007+08:00

Ex-Matrian GenX (^_~)

: PERHATIAN :

Kpd semua genX (SPM'04,,puteri), sape yang nk pegi PLM jamuan raya kt PUTRA PALACE tu sila buat confirmation kt saya ataupon Mrs. Sumaiyah Adzahar aka 249 di talian 0195122439..hehe..jgn mare=p

Jemputlah datang beraya......('',)

why??....knp lah..@#$%

2009-09-19T20:38:00.004+08:00

i know i might be a bit churlish....but..why is it always like this.........
aaaaaarrrgghhhhhhhh*banghead*(100xtimes)huhu~~~

Good News -------> celebrating Hari raya with my family *yeay!!!*(~_^)
Bad News --------> our 1st syawal is on monday......................yup..meaning we're celebrating hari
raya a day after malaysians celebrate it (s**k!!)

hahahaa...Selamat Berpuasa ler to all Bruneians sok:l*straight face* heh... n Selamat Hari Raya to all Malaysians........x@#*at wits 'end*

aaaaaaaaaa......=(=(=(=(....(continue banghead!!)dushh333xx

What a releASe..

2009-09-19T11:00:00.004+08:00

At last, i'm home now. Another long hiatus, huh..haha..sorry for that. After stunted by all freaky stuff, i think my ramadhan is a bit 'lose'..huhu All those sucky things keeps me busy with 'hal duniawi'..eheh..*sigh*

Ermm..for the time being, i don't feel like blogging, friendstering, facebooking or what so ever...i just wanna rest...rest, rest n rest *big smile*....(learn to appreciate my time=))...but don't worry i'll be back asap..*rehab*

i bet u guys must be in raya mood...so am i...so, di kesempatan ini, i would like to wish all of u a Happy Hari Raya Aidilfitri & Maaf Zahir Batin. Salah & silap harap dimaafkan. (Best kan raye, leh makan kueh raya banyak2..hahaha)

so, enjoy your raya k!

Water Droplet

2009-08-23T11:12:00.007+08:00

Huhu...
its still raining heavily outside. No wandering.
so, terpakse la berhibernasi kt bilik..*lol* haha
sejuknyeee...grrr....2 ari pose 2 ari ujan.
unfortunately i got sorethroat...arghhh..geramnyee...
dr smlm batuk x henti..gosh! i can't even sleep..
badan agk panas..(but pliz don't ever to think its h1n1)huhu..
mybe only light fever..*wink*
my fren said i'm too obstinate 4 not taking da medicine last nite.. (yeke..xdela degil sgt cme malas nk pkr, biar la dia baik sndri)
but still....i hate dis condition..it makes me uncomfortable..

oh god help me.T_T

Hope feel better soon!

Do pray 4 me yar..tenkiu2(^_^)

(musim berhibernasi lam bilik..huhu)

It's come again

2009-08-22T16:51:00.008+08:00

1 Ramadhan,
the most unwaited moment. I do always pray for my healthiness so i can meet again this fasting month. It's raining today perhaps the world were also welcoming dis blessed n blissful month. Thank You Allah for giving us dis month ~ month of struggling, reaching the highest peaks of iman.
I ensure i can gain da balanced diet-maybe losing 4 or 5 kg within one month (experienced from last ramadhan),
but.....
will i gain HIS blessing, forgiveness and escape from the Hellfire???huhu...
It's the main question that i should ponder and keep in mind. It's nothing to do with da diet..it's all about our soul then....*sigh* I don't want to just let it pass me by. I want to make good use of this blessing ramadhan, Insya-Allah. So, I hope you guys also have a 'big n good' plan to do in this fullest merits n virtues month.

One of the companions of the Prophet s.a.w said, “We spend half the year making du’a for Allah s.w.t to allow us to see another Ramadhan, and we spend half the year making du’a for Allah s.w.t to accept the Ramadhan that passed.”

"Ya Allah, Tuhan Yang Maha Pengasih Lagi Maha Penyayang, terimalah ibadah kami dan makbulkanlah doa kami, andaikata ramadhan ini yang terakhir buat kami, maka jadikanlah ramadhan ini yang TERBAiK untuk kami,amin ya rabbal 'alamin"

~Selamat Berpuasa & Beribadah kepada seluruh umat Islam~

Mid-sem break

2009-08-14T01:49:00.011+08:00

Thank God it's Friday. Praise be to Allah, I can finally let my butt down rest for a WEEK. Can't u see A WEEK..huhu Maybe a week means nothing to y'all but it's everything to me.. I can barely wait this moment and wish it will not end..*go dreaming*..(even though a week is like a day to me) Thank u to so called yu-es-em for remaining da holiday till its time..i mean following the schedule (of course not the special holiday - h1n1)..midterm break okey!*rolling eyes* ha3..Plus, we can celebrate our 1st Ramadhan at home.Awesome! ( excluded me..*sigh* )

Seems that we're in convocation atmosphere this week, so i can see a lot of 'doctors' here n there..haha..u know why?because there's a lot of people wearing safety protector aka mask which is looks like doc..huhuhu Good for them.

I was freaking out this first six weeks in this sem. Let me re-list back the things that are lying on my horizontal softboard over the past week or so ------>
^ visiting friends ^ hiking Gunung Jerai ^ preparing for presentation ^ attending talk ^ interviewing Malaysian Author - Prof. Muhammad Haji Salleh ^ finishing my assignment, assignment n assignment ^ waiting for my scholarship interview ^ practising netball 4 varsity team n lastly suffering from sunburn after netball tournament at Pesta Bola Jaring Pulau Pinang. (uwaa..tidakk,, abis burn muka ku....sedey3) Thank God i got a personal doc who's advise me to put aloevera gel...hehe..(coz sunburn make my face pedih n mengelupas) tp..lps buh gel tu alhmdlh ok dah..tp...=( muka cam arang la sket..huhu... I tell u what Penang is freaky damn hot! I hate it!! *banghead*

To my personal doc(future doctor):
Thanx 4 ur advices dan jg nasihat2 y byk ko kasi ak. Its kind of u n i really appreciate it. Plus, i got so many medic's vocab..huhu kind of u increasing my knowledge=) May Allah bless u ('',)

Now, put the suffering aside and back to holiday's mood. *grinning*. I'm going back to Terengganu tonight. Do pray 4 my safety..=) U guys too! Hepi holiday to all yu-es-em students. Have an enjoyable break! May Allah bless us, amin(^_^)

Updatessss!!

2009-07-28T15:14:00.004+08:00

Haha, Hi everyone, your ~~beautiful young lady~~ has been disappeared for a quite long time, kinda miss her huh?? yea I knew it! =P..kui3

Just as how you guys have expected, another long hiatus. Well, my sincerest apologies that this misery isn't going to end as I won't find myself updating in awhile. Thanks for all those daily hits anyway, you know who you ~~stalkers~~ are, and I really do appreciate them.

To hafidzah Uzir : I'm so sorry dear I can't upload yet da photos for the time being, kinda busy (n lazy as well...haha..hee=P..nnt la ek)

I had been busy and am still busy, and also the laziness and lack of mood, too many things that have to be done...(haha..yeah rite..)

I know I should be ~~smacked~~ for the sudden comeback and then the "already expected" disappearance thereafter. But, I should be forgiven because it's not really my fault that the education system make me stuck in it..(gosh! Campus life is s**k!! i hate it!!!! *banghead*.. Internet access at my campus is totally utterly inefficient...so many blocking maa.. ( of course we have to blame things around us...hak3 )

Not really in an uber good mood to blog anyway. Was updating just for the sake of it. Coming up later.

^^Praying Hard asking the STRENGTHS from HIM^^

I hate this part right here

2009-07-04T09:04:00.020+08:00

No I wasn't singing. (its only PCD's song..huhu) its just that I really hate that part that I gotta go back to USM....a crazy sem is waiting for me...its the time for toiling and moiling my head and my butt to all freaky stuff - assignment, quiz, test, tutor, class......lol ( sesungguhnya blaja itu jihad..huhu..insaf2..sob3..=P)

This holiday I thought, gave me most of the things I always wanted.

I travelled, I spent time with family, I met up with people I missed, I spent and I earned, I watched drama (british, american, french, korean, chinese, errr....hindustan..huhu, malay, and...ahah..cartoonsss, YM'ing..hehe googling and downloading, I lazed around, I relaxed, I… did a lot of things I wanted to do. Well all in all, I had a lot of fun in just this one semester break that I craved for.

A quote from oth would say, "Every song ends, but is there a reason to not enjoy it?" nope. But I can't help feeling distressed when it ends, can I? It's saddening, really, at the thought of leaving all these behind. All these precious little things that made me happy, all these time being at home with family and friends, all these tiny little moments that I'd do anything if I could, to freeze it.

As I look at the calendar, each day, each hour and each second I realized, is inching towards my going back to USM. OMG..its today..huhu (Am I going back today???)Aaargghh..I hate that question! I feel so upset, so disturbed, so distraught. I'm dreading it, to be honest. It's as though nothing over there is worth looking forward to, or to make me a happier person that I am already right now apart from studying. (Yes, you got me right! I love to study, I love to learn. I love to discover and do you have a problem with that?)eheh.....

Sigh fine. I'm probably not on mood now that I sound so pessimistic but who on earth would want to leave their comfort zones? But......(Like my teacher once said, comfort zones is too dangerous..Tarbiyah tidak akan dapat dicapai melainkan hanya kesusahan, kesulitan dan kepayahan)...huhu...I'm a loser then...O Allah, help me and put us in your true and blessing path..AMENN

**The Ultimate JOy ~MARDHATILLAH~ **

"And many a Prophet (i.e. many from amongst the Prophets) fought (in Allahs Cause) and along with him (fought) large bands of religious learned men. But they never lost heart for that which did befall them in Allahs Way, nor did they weaken nor degrade themselves. And Allah loves As-Sabirin (the patient ones, etc.).(Surah: Aal-e-Imran, Verse #: 146 )"

H1N1 influence!!

2009-06-30T15:09:00.004+08:00

This virus spreads so fast!!

As of June 30, 2009 there were 144 H1N1 cases in our country, including 17 locally transmitted cases. THE Dewan Rakyat is expected to debate an emergency motion on the Influenza A (H1N1) outbreak and the appropriate measures taken... (yeah definitely they should!....c'mon quickly do something lah...jgn asyik debate jerk x sudah2..huhu)

O Allah, my Lord!

Save myself...

Hope my family and friends are fine, healthy. I will always pray to them. :D

I will take care of myself too :D

As time goes on..

2009-06-24T18:50:00.009+08:00

It has been awhile…

Mood swings are inevitable. I would be lying if I were to say that I've never experienced it. There are series of ups and downs, which I presume you are able to see that some posts are about some crazy stuff and some are just downright depressing. Inconsistency. The day officially wraps up with some reflections. Words, thoughts, actions ; they linger in my mind.

I realize that I depend on Him a whole lot. In whatever I do, in whatever I accomplish, I really depend on Him. But sometimes, my dependency on Him becomes so mundane and I don't see the significance of it. I admit, I've been struggling with my past (and also present) about actions that I have done which have hurt Him and also myself. Taking things for granted, skipping devotions/prayer time because I was just too occupied with my own stuff. The exhaustion. Days turn to weeks. Weeks changed into months.

The connection was lost. I wanted to get closer to Him, but my past actions have hindered me from doing so - the guilt, the shame. I was only a speck of dust. I envied those whom He saw as gold. I envied those who had continuous relationship with Him, while my relationship was on and off. Everything became so familiar, and I got sick of it...**sigh**

Everyone is about dreaming of heaven(jannatul firdausi). Everyone could enter it.
but.......................

I've always wondered whether I'll go to hell(neraka jahanam) some day..huhu (T_T) na'uzubillahiminzalik.... My worthlessness. My vulnerability. My shame. I'm always stuck with predicaments that disrupt my relationship with Him. Who else could I blame? None other than myself. And this, again, adds salt to the wound.

I felt rotten. Inside. Brokenness, which will haunt me so long as I exist.

Does God play favoritism?
I can't help but succumb to human flaws. Living in this superficial world, blinded and misled. All we like sheep, have gone astray, each of us turning our own separate way. Believing the lies which are planted deeply in our minds.

God isn't fair,
but He is just. He might give you various talents. But if you are gifted with two talents, He expects two from you. If He gives you six, then He expects six from you.

I'm facing lots of calamities. Just that the impact is aggravated with this myriad of feelings. It has been many years that we've continued to stay strong. There were times I felt jaded that I didn't want to give anymore. There were also times where I convinced myself to bounce back by Faith.

Faith is simple but rather complicated. This may be an oxymoron, but Faith is what carries me through. Being realistic is a barrier to shield yourself from hurt and disappointment. The world is full of pessimism. So, realism equals to pessimism.Put our trust to HIM n have faith in HIM.

I still hate the fact that my flesh is weak...(Kudrat ku tiada terdaya...). Afterall, I'm merely human. If God embraces it, why can't I? Allahuakbar...Allah The Almighty!

Everything will be fine........

Last words, live life to the fullest. Be sure to grab hold our life mission.

The Ultimate Joy********MARDHATILLAH*********

"Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau mengirakan kami salah jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah. Wahai Tuhan kami ! Janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami bebanan yang berat sebagaimana yang telah Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada kami. Wahai Tuhan kami! Janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang kami tidak terdaya memikulnya. Dan maafkanlah kesalahan kami, serta ampunkanlah dosa kami, dan berilah rahmat kepada kami. Engkaulah Penolong kami; oleh itu, tolonglah kami untuk mencapai kemenangan terhadap kaum-kaum yang kafir".(Surah: Al-Baqara, Verse #: 286 )

Foods That Represent Your Organs.. SubhanAllah..

2009-06-18T09:28:00.005+08:00

to make us ponder upon HIS creatures....
ALLAH The Most Gracious n ALL Knower..

A sliced Carrot looks like the human eye The pupil, iris and radiating lines look just like the human eye...and YES science now shows that carrots greatly enhance blood flow to and function of the eyes.

A Tomato has four chambers and is red. The heart is red and has four chambers. All of the research shows tomatoes are indeed pure heart and blood food.

Grapes hang in a cluster that has the shape of the heart. Each grape looks like a blood cell and all of the research today shows that grapes are also profound heart and blood vitalizing food.

A Walnut looks like a little brain, a left and right hemisphere, upper cerebrums and lower cerebellums. Even the wrinkles or folds are on the nut just like the neo-cortex. We now know that walnuts help develop over 3 dozen neuron-transmitters for brain function.

Kidney Beans actually heal and help maintain kidney function and yes, they look exactly like the human kidneys.

Celery, Bok Choy, Rhubarb and more look just like bones. These foods specifically target bone strength. Bones are 23% sodium and these foods are 23% sodium. If you don't have enough sodium in your diet the body pulls it from the bones, making them weak. These foods replenish the skeletal needs of the body.

Eggplant, Avocadoes and Pears target the health and function of the womb and cervix of the female - they look just like these organs. Today's research shows that when a woman eats 1 avocado a week, it balances hormones, sheds unwanted birth weight and prevents cervical cancers. And how profound is this?.... It takes exactly 9 months to grow an avocado from blossom to ripened fruit. There are over 14,000 photolytic chemical constituents of nutrition in each one of these foods (modern science has only studied and named about 141 of them).

Figs are full of seeds and hang in twos when they grow. Figs increase the motility of male sperm and increase the numbers of sperm as well to overcome male sterility.

Sweet Potatoes look like the pancreas and actually balance the glycemic index of diabetics.

Olives assist the health and function of the ovaries.

Grapefruits, Oranges, and other Citrus fruits look just like the mammary glands of the female and actually assist the health of the breasts and the movement of lymph in and out of the breasts.

Onions look like body cells. Today's research shows that onions help clear waste materials from all of the body cells They even produce tears which wash the epithelial layers of the eyes.

sumber : fradzar blog

kepada Yang Berkenaan..

2009-06-16T09:42:00.005+08:00

min,
due to ur request, dis is for u...hee (^_~)..
khas utk mereka y da married n those who will be...

**rsnye bergune utk asma' n abg mexico jgk kot.....haha..*LOL*

~~sELaMaT mEmBaCa~~

TIPS CINTA SUAMI ISTERI

1. Cium tangan suami dan dahi isteri setiap kali sebelum berpisah ke tempat kerja masing-masing.

2. Jika berpisah lebih dari sehari seperti untuk tugasan luar daerah, tambah rutin harian tadi dengan pelukan dan ciuman di bibir.

3. Walau sesibuk mana sekali pun, luangkan masa untuk menelefon pasangan sekurang-kurangnya sekali walau sekadar untuk bertanya apa yang sedang dilakukan.

4. Sentiasa ucapkan kata-kata sayang seperti I love you sepenuh hati sebelum keluar kemana-mana, menamatkan perbualan di telefon dan sebelum tidur.

5. Sentiasa mencari peluang untuk makan tengah hari bersama kerana pastinya ia tiada gangguan anak-anak jika pada hari berkerja.

6. Amalkan bertanya apa yang berlaku sepanjang hari selepas pulang dari kerja sebagai tanda mengambil berat dan memberi peluang pasangan meluahkan perasaan.

7. Luangkan masa untuk berbual tentang apa sahaja dari isu rumah tangga hinggalah politik semasa sebelum tidur.

8. Mudah berbaik jika berlaku sebarang pertelingkahan, jangan biar berlarutan walau untuk satu jam sekali pun apatah lagi berhari-hari.

9. Temani pasangan semasa menonton rancangan kegemaran mereka walau sambil membaca akhbar misalnya kerana apa yang penting ada berada disisi.

10. Jangan sesekali berpisah tempat tidur walau anak sudah berderet atau usia sudah meningkat kerana ia adalah salah satu amalan penting untuk mengeratkan kasih sayang.

11. Amalkan sembahyang berjemaah semasa di rumah, berdoa bersama serta bersalam-salaman selepasnya.

12. Biasakan bergilir gelas atau pinggan semasa makan serta tidak segan atau geli untuk menghabiskan makanan atau minuman isteri atau suami.

13. Sesekali buatlah kejutan seperti membeli hadiah atau kad untuk peristiwa tertentu, memakai pakaian dalam yang seksi atau apa sahaja yang anda tahu pasangan pasti menyukainya.

14. Senda gurau dalam rumah tangga amat penting, ceritalah sesuatu yang kelakar, teka teki atau apa sahaja yang membolehkan anda ketawa bersama.

15. Sentiasa kenang pengorbanan masing-masing seperti susah payah isteri melahirkan anak dan suami yang berkerja keras menyara keluarga.

16. Sesekali tukar gaya penampilan agar ada kelainan serta untuk mengelakkan pasangan merasa jemu.

17. Apa sahaja masalah yang timbul, berterus terang dan berbincang bersama untuk menyelesaikannya.

18. Sentiasa menyimpan tekad untuk menjadi suami/isteri yang baik dalam rumah tangga bahagia kerana fikiran positif akan memudahkan anda mencapai matlamat tersebut.

19. Jika amalan-amalan di atas tidak pernah dilakukan sehingga anda membacanya hari ini, jadikanlah ia sebagai titik permulaan untuk melakukannya tanpa rasa ragu dan malu.

***Rumahku Syurgaku***Home Sweet Home***

dear diary..........

2009-06-13T21:17:00.009+08:00

tick tock tick tock,

it's come again...... time for stress-fulled-insomia-constipated-mood swings-insanity and disorientedness m00ds'..eheh.. (imagine pms 100x more)....lol~~~

gosh~~damn bored!!! school break just ended..my little brother (who's going to sit for PMR examination) went back to school yesterday so my little sister as well (she's going to matriculation in pahang..huhu..tata nati..wish u all the best).....here i am..alone..lonely..n all those freaky stuff..eheh like bsb said~~"Loneliness is tragical" (is it???)..heh..whatever....

oh boy!......i'm here just counting my days..........huu....uwaaaa....=`(

just for my pleasure of eyes........(^_^) 

~~g00d VS eViL~~

raining inside

bummer

cupid's arrows

sign

Mr. Know It All

The beginning in the end

wtf

stalker

disappear

nothing

trail of tears

only time

zero hour

random thought (part 5)

i need a doctor

fast five

pray

option

courtesy

written in the stars

finally,

thank you Allah

'i have a dream'

tense

bizzare

overload

*bug*

Reminder

??

random thought (part 4)

crucial

wat?

excuse me,

school break

'danke'

'sedetik lebih'

student oh student(part 2)

miss

4E

rehabilitation part2

"shocked"

Mr. Charlie

~~heartsick~~

the one n only

(T_T)

random thought (part 3)

CINTA TAK SEHARUSNYA MEMILIKI

student oh student

holidays

mode: ggrrrr (angry)

flu+CNY

mode : blur

i'm sick

mode:love teaching

2011

my craziness..huhu

picking up myself

Life is for rent

~reminder~

Just so u know

In a relationship

oh boy~

random thought (part 2)

LM oh LM! (part 2)

LM oh LM!

rehabilitation

blurry

secret admire

why 'S'

just the way you are

leavin'

stress

i'm counting.....

random thought

enie menie minie more

~Marching On~

Reasons to smile=)

Drops of favourite thoughts.

craziness

g00d VS eViL

bug

heartsick